Wow...Havent blogged in HELLA long!!!

I dont know if anyone will even read this, but I igured I'd check in just incase. It doesnt look like anyone but "On and Up" is still posting. Clearly resolve didnt work for anyone but her aparently thus far. I had an outbreak that just cleared up a few days ago, and it was in an area where I never had one before... Hopefully this wont be TMI, but the sores are usually limited to my vaginal canal or inner labia, but this outbreak was on my outter labia, borderline where the pubic hair begins and this was strange to me. I had shaved a day or two beofr it appeared so I was thinking maybe I made it spread there somehow, but there were no other visible sores. I doubt this has anything to do with resolve, but I justr thought I'd share that. It was kinda depressing, because I dont want to think that OB's will jus start apearing anywhere down there now.....
Anyways, I hope evryone is doing well.... I met someone who I informed of H from the jump and he wasnt bothered by it. He asks me questions about it at times when herpes comes up in our conversations or on TV or somthing, but he totally accepted me and we have been together ever since. It's still in the early relationship stages, so there is no sex going on yet, and getting that outbreak in the area where the hair grows scared me off that a little more because that probably means condoms will be less helpful in protecting him against it then they would have been if I was still just getting OB's on my inner region. He said he isnt worried about it but I still wouldnt wanna pass it to him. It's such a relief having it out in the open from the jump....it takes the stress of the "when/ how should I tell?".

Take it easy all....Until next time...

Hi there!!!

Hi everyone!!! I'm not sure if anyone is still keeping up with any of this stuff, but I still get new people emailing my gmail I put on this blog about resolve and herpes in general just to ask questions and find support. I wanted anyone who passes by this blog to know that even though I'm not really ever posting on here anymore, I still check my gmail fairly regularly so please feel free to email me for any questions you may have or support you may need :)

Also, if resolve still stalks us on here, I GET LOTS OF EMAILS ASKING IF THE PRODUCT IS REAL AND IF THEY SHOULD BUY IT AND I TELL EVERYONE WHO ASKS ME THAT IT IS A FAKE AND IT DID NOTHING BUT GIVE FALSE HOPE AND HAVE US ALL INVEST A LOT OF TIME AND MONEY INTO SOMETHING THAT WAS A LIE!!!!

The Results Are In...

I know my 90 days wont be up for a couple more weeks, but clearly Resolve is a scam so I went a few weeks ago to get a blood test since I never had one. My gyno siad she doesnt know what type of test they give for it because they only usually do it for pregnant women in their 3rd trimester and bla blah blah...but basically she gave me a hard time about getting one but I got it anyways and it says I am negative for HSV1 and positive for HSV2. Hope everyone is doing okay. It looks like no one is really posting anymore... I'll keep updating everytime something H related comes up.

Conflicting Information...

Hello everyone...Happy Tuesday. I have been talking to a herpes councelor since I was so down last week and she was very helpful, but I feel like some of the information she was giving me was inaccurate. One of the things she said was that since I have HSV2 in the genital area I cant re-infect myself in the mouth or eye, ear, etc... However, I have been told by my doctor and a few other people who I turn to about this when I am feeling down that people often reinfect themselves in other places by not being careful. I have had H for a while and I have never had any problems anywhere but down there but I assumed it was because I'm always careful about washing my hands after having any contact with my "region". I still think that I could infect myself other places if I'm not careful but now I'm just confused. I also got some wierd info from the advice nurse at the hospital I have my insurance at...I called there to talk about my incident last weekend to see how likely it was that he could possibly be infected and she said it was highly unlikely but it depends on how contagious I was at the time and if he touched himself right after touching me...this part sounded like it made sense but then she told me that people can get herpes from a toilet seat...WTF? For some reason that just sounds way to far fetched for me. I dont know what the hell to believe about this anymore...Now I dont feel like my health care providers are as intellegent and equiped as they should be!!!

Feeling like shit today...

I'm in a little bit of a predicament... I have been dating someone since pretty much January and we dont have sex yet, but I can feel that the time is gettting near and I still haent told him about the H. I was debating if it was worth it to tell him and risk his reaction or break up with him and give another reason for why. It's never easy to tell anyone but it's worse in this case because he knows my family and I'm afraid to be "exposed" and have people treat me differently. I almost told him on two seperate occasions this weekend but I couldnt do it. I know, I know, if he really loves me and cares about me he wouldnt care right? As many times as I say that in my head I cant make myself believe that because if the tables were turned, i.d.k. if I would do it...I think I would for him but I cant say for sure because it's easy for me to say that now cuz I have it. He mentioned someone he knows having it and he made some comments and I got defensive and he asked me why I was so defensive and did I have it and I clammed up and said no when that was the perfect opportunity to put it out there. Then this weekend, he was on my computer and he was typing something in the address bar and the resolve website "herpes cure" thingy popped up. I saw it but he didnt say anything at first so I wasnt sure if he noticed, then a little later he asked me why I had gotten so defensive about the topic the other night so I'm pretty sure he saw it. We talked about it a little bit but he didnt ask me if I had it again and then he didnt bring it up again. I'm driving myself crazy behind this...One of the reasons I'm so freaked out is because I'm to the point where I'm like F it, I need to just tell him no matter what the consequences because feelings on both sides are way too deep and I dont hide anything from him but this but we got really close to having sex a little over a week ago but I stopped it. I let him touch me and we were doing some heavy dry humpin but I had my under garmets on still. I was paranoid he may be at risk from that but I talked to advice nurses and Herpes councelors and they said that from the contact we had it would be pretty much impossible. He hasnt said anything about symptoms and I know that symptoms can vary but the past two relationships I had where my partners were infected, they got their symptoms just as fast as I got mine when I was first infected (less than a week). I'm afraid that he will freak because I let it get that close without mentioning it!!! I feel like an awful person for even allowing myself to get in a relationship with him...This is the worst thing ever right now and it's been putting me under a lot of stress. Any suggestions and opinions from you guys would be greatly appreciated...I'm in a pretty bad place right now :( I think the main reason I go the acyclovir was because if I do tell him and he is okay with it, I wanna let him know that I'm willing to do anything in my power try and prevent him from getting it...by the way...does anyone know how much lower the risk of passing is with suppressive therapy and condoms? Ahhhhh...I'm gonnna stop babbling me but this is really consuming me and I was even really suicidal and self destructive since that incident. I've been under so much stress, I've lost about 10lbs since the incident occured. Anyways, all I can do is pray and try and figure out what I'm gonna do and ho I'm gonna do it...Sorry for being a downer but I'm outta my head right now!!!

I'm still waiting on my blood test results to come. They send them in the mail so I'll know what type I am for sure soon. I've been taking the acyclovir since Thursday but I'm still having some minor tingling...I think...I'm so obbsessed with this, my mind may be playing tricks on me but it could be possible since I'm under so much stress. I hope everyone is well...

Waiting Period Day 68

I discontinued the booster because I feel like there is no reason for me to continue on with process. No one is negative, atleast not for long and I dont feel like dragging this out any further. Today I am going to get a blood test just so I can have my type and levels for my records. As far as resolve, i'm through with it. But I will still keep this blog to share other treatments and options that i and others on here may try to help maintain the current situation until there is a cure. Stay hopeful people!!! This is not the end of the world. It's just a minor set back. We need to just stay positive and stay current on what is out there that can work in our favor.

I'm not sad or anything, and I hope those of you out there arent broken up about this either. This was just a shot in the dark. We had lives before this and we ill definetly have a life after this. Just remember, we control our lives, not H. We will all be fine, especially if we continue to support eachother like we have been.

Fearfully Hopeful texted me last night saying she got some monolaurin si I told her to keep me posted on how it was going for her.

As for me right now, I think I'm but to bite the bullet and get the antivirals for now so I can try and get my body back in the shape it was before resolve.

Waiting Period Day 66

Hello everyone. Not much going on here. I think I'm going to stop taking the booster. The bottle says for 3 weeks or until symptoms stop and the outbreak is about a week or so gone. We'll see how Ifeel about it in a few days. I have a lot going on right now but I check back in here soon.

Waiting Period; Day 62

I'm sure everyone is aware of all the negativity going around regarding the positive results that are popping up around here. I was having second thoughts about continuing with the booster all day long. However, I exchanged a few emails with "Pants" and read "On and Up's" posts, and even though there is a huge chance they may turn out positive again like the others, I think I'm gonna continue the booster to the end and take the western blot in October sometime after my birthday. I'm highly doubting it will work, but I have been taking the booster for about a week, so another two weeks wont kill me. "Pants" said some really encouraging things to me so I'm gonna take his advice. Even if it doesnt work, I have already started so I'm gonna finish it and take things from there when it's over.

I will keep you all posted no matter what happens with me or anyone else

Waiting Period Day 60

Good morning :)

Not much to report but I just wanted to check in and let you all know I'm still here fighting the good fight!!! My outbreak is pretty much cleared up. I've had some pretty intense tingling in the last few days but I'm sure it's because of the OB. My face is still pimply too. I have a feeling the pimples are only gonna get worse because of the booster but this is what I signed up for so it is what it is.

I had dinner with my old mentor from high school (who is still to this day a great friend of mine) on Friday. She is one of the first people who knew I had H and she helped me get through the early stages of it. She hooked me up with another person she "mentors" in our area who is a little younger than me and has genital warts. Even though our viruses are different, it's nice to have someone close by you can meet up with and talk to for support. Dont get me wrong, I love having you all and I'm forever greatful to Resolve for that, weather it works or not, but it's nice to actually be face to face with a person who sees not just what you post, but what you look like and everything when you are sharing stuff about these kind of issues. We have been talking everyday and we have hung out twice since we were put in contact on Friday.

Optimistic: I just wanted to say thank you so much for being right by my side the last few days while I was in my down moments. Talking with you on the phone as much as we have been has really helped me raise my spirits up...so thanks again girl :) Hang in there, we will find something that makes things better for us!!!

Have a great hump day everyone :-)

Waiting Period; Day 58

Happy Monday everyone!!! Thanks to "Positive Thinker" and "Wkd" for your uplifting comments :) I informed Resolve about my OB and they told me to do the booster so I started friday but of course I've F'ed it up already...lol!!! I took both doses on friday and I took the first one on saturday morning, but I was out all day and ended up spending the night out and not getting home till yesterday evening. So basically, I missed my second dose on saturday and my first dose on sunday. I can make them up though. The bottle says take for 3 weeks and then Resolve said wait 6 weeks to test after I have completed the booster. So I know this changes my test date to sometime in late October. I havent calculated it out yet, but when I do, I'll post my first testable day.

I had a pretty good weekend OB and all. Got a lot of rest in, but that means I have to try and finish all my homework tonight for school tomorrow since I didnt even open a book this weekend :( Well, back to the craziness the weekdays bring me!!! I hope you all had a great weekend.

Waiting Period; Day 55

Happy Friday all!!! It's not so happy for me because I do have an outbreak. Clearing Symptom?...Maybe. There is also the chance that this just isnt gonna work. I'll email resolve and see if I should do the booster or if I should wait it out and test first before trying the booster. Surprisingly, Im not that devistated. I guess my mind set was in a good place, great if it works, not the end of the world if it doesnt. The only thing that bothers me is that I usually get them every 4 months or so at the most, but I just had one on step 1 maybe about 2 months ago so it's a little soon for me to be having one. Well, I'm not gonna read too much into it until I hear from Resolve. It should be gone in a day or two anyways. It's only one sore (i usually only have 1 or 2), and it doesnt feel good, but it's not too bad.

This dude on the hub mentioned something called "Monolaurin" (i think) that supposidly breaks down the lipids on the H virus cells making it so they cant replicate which means a lower viral load and less OB's. It's worth looking into..I may try it. I was texting with "Fearfully Hopeful" this morning and she is gonna do some research on it for us and get back to me. I dont really get that many OB's anyways but it would be nice to have them even less.

Waiting Period: Day Fifty Something (not quite sure!!!)

Good afternoon all!!! I gotta scurry off to school soon, but I just wanted to write something quickly because I probably wont be able to post again till next week.

As far as symptoms, my beautiful face is still covered with these awful pimples :-( I have had some major tingling the last couple days too...I'm kinda nervous that I may get an outbreak sometime soon. It has felt that way all day but every time I use the bathroom, I kinda feel around for any "sensitive to the touch" spots where I feel tingles at and I havent felt anything. Dont really know what to think about that... hopefully it's just more clearing. Call me crazy, but it almost seems like the more often I feel aroused, the more tingles I have, like the H is telling me to calm the F down...lol!!! It's kinda funny if you think about it, but it's sad too. Dont worry, I'm not getting aroused because I'm doing anything sexual...I've just been around someone I've been lusting for for months a lot lately and I'm only humman :( Ws that TMI? Oh well...all this thinking about H and lack of sexual activity is really getting to me lately. Poor me...lmao.

Well I'm gonna stoip whining about being horny and get myself together for class. Sorry if this post was too "X-Rated" for yall...lol!!! I'm just being honest here :) Take it easy guys...have a great evening and if I dont post before monday, have a great weekend!!!

Waiting Period; Day 52

Wow!!! 'm sure you have all seen the great news!!! "Onwards and Upwards" and the "Pants and leg something or other dude" are both HSV NEGATIVE!!!! Well, onwards and Upwards said something about having typoe 1 detected, but her type 2 is gone!!! This is great news :-) Hopefully they will both retest in a few months just to be sure they dont have the same outcome as Love but this does make me a bit more hopeful!!!

As far as symptoms, I am still having the pimples on my face and some tingling in my vaginal area, but no outbreaks or anything like that. I'm soooooo excited about the news I feel like anything I was stressed about today has been forgotten!!! Hopefully it will work this way for the rest of us :-0

I'LL HOLLA :-)

Waiting Period; Day 51

Hello All!!! Sorry I havent posted in almost a week...I promise I will not stop doing this blog, atleast until this process is over (if ever)!!! I have just been super busy and I havent been home long enough to blog (or do anything else useful for that matter) in about a week!!! It is nice to get away from it sometimes and feel like I'm normal for a few days but I have to keep it real with myself and remind myself that no matter how much I pretend it doesnt exist for a few days, I still have H as of now. I'm still here though...alive and kickin...I still have pimples and I am experiencing some tingling here and there.

I'm looking forward to the people's results who have them coming up...I hope it's good news :-)

Waiting Period; Day 45

Good evening everyone!!! Symptoms are pretty much the same...pimples still, but I dont recall tingling today.

As tired as I was last night, I laid in bed for hours without falling asleep so I was still tired today, but my mood was much better. Tomorrow is hump day which means we are almost there!!! I am really looking forward to this weekend...I'm gonna be as lazy as possible so I can be rested for school to start next week. I'm excited about school :-) I'm really looking forward to the classes I'll be taking.

"Wkd" and "Optomistic"...thank you both so so much for your kind words and support. I dont know what I'd do without you guys. Also, thanks to "Hopeful"...you are a true friend!!! The three of you have been the best thing that has happened to me since all this Resolve mess and weather it works or not, I'm glad it brought me to you all :-) "Fearfully Hopeful" and "Seatortoga", I'm forever greatful to your support and posts as well. You all keep me sane through this.

I'm really looking forward to seeing "Onwards and U[wards" results on the blogs and "Daisy's" results from the hub. Stay optomistic everyone!!!

Waiting Period; Day 44

Good evening everyone!!! Today was an awful day for me :-( It was a super long work day and I' soooooo exhausted physically and mentally, I can hardly function. I hate starting my weeks out this way!!!

Anyways, enough of me wallowing in my self pity...as far as symptoms, my face is still broke out and I experienced some minor tingling today. I'm having my doubts about this working, which is kinda depressing, but not the end of the world. I'm trying not to let myself fall into negative thinking about this, but this waiting to test, and reading what some people post in the hub make it difficult. Also, my "common sense" is telling me, if this really worked, than why is no one cured? I hope my test date in september will be what I want but I cant help but wonder...Sorry if this post is depressing or discouraging to any of you, but I promised to be honest here, good or bad and this is how I'm feeling about it today. Hopefully I'll be back to my upbeat self soon...It's just been a really long day and this whole detox has been a really long process.

Anyways, I'm tired and about to go to bed, but I hope everyone is doing well. Stay as optomistic as possible!!!

Waiting Period; Day 43

Nothing major going on...just waiting out the rest of my time before I test. I dont recall much tingling in the last few days. The pimples I had when I last posted are clearing, but I'm getting new ones...this sucks!!! There's not a lot of them, but they are big and noticable :(

I feel like this weekend went by way to fast!!! It's already Sunday and I feel like there is still so much I need to do before I start the week off.

Waiting Period; Day 40

I had some pretty severe tingling for a few minutes this morning...It actually bothered me to the point where it started to really distract me from what I was doing. But then it went away and I havent felt any since...go figure!!!

Other than that, nothing major. I ate HELLA good last night...lol!!!...And then hated myself in the morning :-( It's all good though, I know I'm allowed to stray from my "healthy diet and exercise routine" on occasion.

Well, that's all for now. I hope everyone is well. Have a great night :-)

Waiting Period; Day 39

Hi everyone!!!

Nothing new here- My face still looks like pizza and I had some minor tingling today but not much else going on here.

I decided to take today off the gym...My legs are pretty sore from introducing some new toning exercises, and plus, I made good on my word and decided to come home with some of my favorite all American junk food and pig out in front of the t.v. until I decide it's time for bed :-) I am passing on the alcohol consumption though...I think I'll wait till a party I'm attending on Saturday for that. I dont wanna go overboard with the calories between comfort food and liquor!!! I'm think I'm gonna go to bed early tonight and get up before work in the morning to work out.

Wkd: I'm glad you're enjoying your time off...I wish I was there with you!!! Chicken and drinks sounds great right about now, only I dont too much care for KFC...I like Popeye's better. Do they have Popeye's down under? Lol...you always give me a good laugh when you mention "crazy girl"...lmao :-) A nice lady I chat with on the hub gave me a good laugh this evening as well. I dont know if you guys do this in Australia, but in the US, we call Wednesday "Hump Day" because it's the "hump" in the middle of the week that leads us closer to the weekend when it's over (I hope I explained that right). Anyways, she ended her post by saying "Happy hump day even though none of us are humping :-(" (or something to that effect). That made me laugh too!!! Thanks again for your support and kind words buddy. Dont forget to send me those pics you mentioned when you get some free time. Have a beer for me :-)

Waiting Period; Day 38

I believe this is my 38th waiting day before testing...lol!!! I wasnt sure if I was accurate with the title of my last posting and I'm too tire to calculate it out now, but what I DO know is that my first testable day is 9-25-2009, and believe it or not, it's coming quicker than I expected!!!

I apologize for having these "couple day gaps" between posts but things have been HELLA crazy for me last week and this week and it's been hard for me to get a moment to myself to do this. To be honest, it;s been nice to not have Resolve and herpes on my mind as much. As theraputic as blogging is and as many supportive friends I've made on here, it's nice to feel like a "regular" disease free person...even if it is only for a few days until reality sets back in :-(

Not really any new symptoms...my face is pretty broke out at the moment and I had some stronger tingling than normal yesterday and this morning. I think I have decided to wait out my ninety days and test before taking my booster. I dont really feel like going anothwer round unless I absolutely have too...

My work out routine sorta died over the weekend, but I started this week out strong so wish me luck on keepin it going all week long...lol!!! I've been in one of those moods lately where all I wanna do is call in sick and pig out and drink with friends. Even though they dont know about this, it feels nice to live like a regular 23 year old every once in a while.

I hope everyone is well...until next time :-)

Waiting Period; Day 36 (I think...)

Hello everyone!!! Sorry it has been a couple days since my last post. I've been with family and away from my home and laptop for a few days.

My face is breaking out again!!! Also, I have a painful pimple on my scalp at the top of my head. Tingling has been minimal but I still have been feeling it here and there.

Not much else going on here. I hope everyone had a great weekend. Until next time :-)

Waiting Period; Day 33

Good afternoon everyone :-) Nothing really to report. I dont recall any tingling today or yesterday besides what I had posted about. No other symptoms going on at this time.

The weather is better here today, which always makes me happy!!! I did another "Super Woman" work out today and I am just beat! Even though I'm tired, it feels good to exercise that hard when all is said and done...The only bad thing about today is that I have to go another job this evening, but it will be over quickly. I'm looking forward to tomorrow being friday :-) It will be one long ass day, but when it's over I can do whatever I please because I get to sleep in on saturday!!! I hope everyone is well. Stay optomistic :-)

Waiting Period; Day 32

Good morning all!!! Nothing major going on, just some minor tingling early this morning. My skin is pretty clear at the moment.

I had a pretty wild day yesterday...wild in a good way, but I'm exhausted today and it's one of my long days :( Yesterday, I worked out super hard!!! I ran for an hour, did abs, and swam...I felt like super woman...lol!!! Then when I got out the gym, I had a message from my afternoon client saying I didnt have to come in so I got to spend the afternoon and evening with some of my best friends I havent hung out with in a minute. I had several drinks... I probably consumed as many calories last night as I burned in my workout...lol!!! Oh well, I'm still sexy :-) I'm hoping that by the time I get off tonight, I'll be able to do another work out like yesterday, but it's not likely...I'm definetly feeling the "burn" today so I may have to chill out until tomorrow. The weather here is pretty crappy right now...hopefully it will get better soon...it's summer!!! I want heat and sun, not clouds and sprinkles!!! Well, I hope everyone is well. Until next time :-)

Waiting Period; Day 30

Good evening all!!! That severe tingling I had the last couple days seems to have disappeared because I dont believe I felt any today...strange huh? Hey, I just noticed while looking at the title of my post that I am 1/3rd of the way done with waiting to test...whoooo hooooo :-) I dont really notice any other symptoms...my skin is pretty normal (not totally clear, but not hella pimply either). If anything changes, you all will be the first to know :-)

"Wkd":
It makes my day when you leave me your sweet and funny comments!!! You literally make me laugh outloud :-) Thanks for being such a great support and friend to me. As excited as I get when I see you've posted, I must be human because a machine couldn't get that happy!!!

"Faithful" :
I'm sorry for your recent diagnosis of HSV2, but just know it's not the end of the world, and you are not alone!!!
I dont have time to re-cap all the symptoms I've felt on the detox tonight, but I can give you a brief summary. I didnt start blogging until day 33 of step 1, but on step 1, I experienced some sleeplessness, LOTS of acne (that was the most severe symptom for me), some wierd bowel movements and gas(...lol...I hope it's not TMI, but it's the truth), upset stomach and vomitting (if I didnt eat enough before a dose), and sensative gums. In step 2, my skin cleared up completely around 1/2 way through but I was often HELLA tired no matter how much rest I got and I got really sick and threw up one of my morning doses on one of my last days. I believe I didnt eat enough before taking it, but I didnt just get nauseated, throw up, and then the feeling went away like when I got sick on step 1, it was really bad. Even after I projectily threw up all the contents of my stomach (including bile), I was still shaky and sick. I had to leave work, go home, and sleep for a few hours before I felt even close to normal again. Until I was able to fall asleep and sleep it off, I had some severe stomach cramping and funky bowel movements. I'm not telling you this to scare you from taking it, because if you can afford it, I say "what the hell", it's worth a shot. Lots of other people took this product and didnt get sick like I did, I just call myself trying to watch what I eat and lose weight so if you do do the detox, eat more than an apple or a yogurt before taking the doses. If you would like more more details on symptoms, you can go back to my past posts. Sorry if I forgot anything in this small recap :-(
If you click on my profile, you can see the other blogs I follow. There are 2 there that have tested negative so far; however, 1 tested positive again after claiming there was no way they could have been re-infected (Love) and the other recently tested negative and should get tested again in a few months just to see if her status is the same (Fighter). The rest of the blogs I follow are of people who have either tested positive, are still on the detox, waiting to test like myself, or just dont blog anymore. There was also a lady on the hub ("Cali") who had tested negative at one point but then had an OB like 7 months later. It's up to you to decide if it is worth it to you or not to try the detox. Personally, I ordered the detox based off of "Love's" blog but now she has positive results. So you could wait to see what happens with her after the booster or me and a few other bloggers when we test in the next couple months. I believe there are 2 other people besides myself who will be testing in September and October. Good luck with whatever you decide to do and remember you can feel free to leave me a comment/ email anytime if you have a question or just need to talk. Have a great night :-)

Waiting Period; Day 29

I hope everyone had a great weekend. I took it pretty easy. I think my new longer work hours finally caught up to me this week...lol!!! I had to pump my breaks and stay in for a couple nights to catch up on rest but it's back to the salt mines early tomorrow in the a.m.

I had some pretty severe tingling yesterday and today. I'm sure I've had worse but not that I can remember since I was still doing step 2. It was so intense at one point yesterday, I was sure I was gonna wake up with an OB today but so far nothing has surfaced. I dont know weather to be discouraged by this or to classify it as a clearing symptom. Oh well, there is no reason for me to dwell on it. Like I said before, there is nothing I can do about any of this now but wait and test in September.

Still a little down, same as the other day. It's not necessarily Resolve related but life in general. I'm sure I'll snap out of it soon. Staying in for a few days and not having much to do was nice, but I'm so used to being busy, I think I got cabin fever just in this short amount of time...lol!!! That will be over soon enough, tomorrow is back to the 13 hr work days. At least that's only 3 days out of the work week, but I still have part time work the other 2 days and it's hard to catch up on rest during the week when my hours are like this. I'm sure my body and mind will get used to it after another week or two, but by then school will start back and that will be one more thing for me to adjust too. Ah life....it never gives us a break or makes anything easy on us huh? Well hang in there everyone. HAPPY SUNDAY :-)

Waiting Period Day 26

I got one of those fluid-filled Resolve pimples on the side of my face close to my ear. Tingling is still popping up here and there, but it's still pretty minor. Other than that, nothing really going on as far as symptoms. My face isnt breaking out besides that funky step 1 type pimple I just mentioned.

My afternoon client canceled, so I was done with work by the late morning. I planned on going home and doing some house work, then taking a nap and getting up to work out for a few hours in the late afternoon. Well, I made it as far as some of the house work, but once I hit the pillow for the nap, I was out for the count!!! I've been sleeping all day and to tell you the truth, I feel like I could go back to sleep for the night. I'm surprised I slept this much and still feel like sleeping but I think it's a combination of beeing physically and emotionally drained!!! I gotta be up for another long day tomorrow so I think I'm going to take some tylenol PM and pass back out. If I end up waking up before I actually have to be up for work and cant go back to sleep, I'll just hit the gym since I dint make it there today.

Been feeling a little down the last couple days, not necessarily Resolve related, hope everyone out there is in a better mood than me. I'm sure I'll bounce back soon, I just have a lot on my mind these days. Have a great evening all!!!

Waiting Period; Day 25

Good morning everyone. Nothing has changed, I'm feeling the same symptoms as yesterday. Still waiting on the booster..seems like it's taking forever :-(

I have another one of those super long days today so wish me luck getting through it. Have a great day all :-)

Waiting Period; Day 24

Good evening all!!! Nothing new to report, I feel like I have been repeating myself with that line since I finished step 2...lol!!! Symptoms are the same, minor tingling here and there and I have that painful pimple near my hairline on my scalp.

Today was my first day back on the elyptical at the gym since my back got hurt. I'm supposed to be off running and lifting (people and weights) for another 2 weeks, but my back has been feeling okay and swimming has been getting boring by itself. I havent gone back to lifting any weights or doing any crunches/ sit ups but I did 30 min of cardio on the elyptical and 30 min of swimming then the steam room for ten minutes. It was quite nice. After the gym, I went and got a pedicure with the works; the whole bubble water for your feet in the massage chair and leg massages....aaaahhhhhhhh, I felt like a princess for that 45 minutes :-)

Well, I hope everyone has a great night :-)

Waiting Period; Day 23

I got a wierd pimple on my scalp close to my hairline. It seems pretty big to have just popped up today, but I just noticed it when I went to put my hair up. Still some minor tingling going on down there but my skin seems to be clear of any new pimples for now.

I'm still waiting on the booster. I checked the tracking today and it looks like it should be here soon.

Waiting Period; Day 22

Good morning everyone!!! Besides the tingling, there is not much else going on as far as symptoms go. My skin isnt breaking out in huge pimples, but it still has a few blemishes scattered around.

Nothing came from the Post Office for the booster yesterday so I'm hoping it will be here sometime soon next week. Hearing how disgusting the booster is from other people's blogs and the hub makes me not look forward to it, but I should be able to handle it.

I didnt get as much rest as I would have liked to this weekend but hopefully I can go to bed early enough tonight so I wont be exhausted first thing monday morning. Last night was the first night I got to sleep in my own bed since my friend's mom passed away, and let me tell you; THERE IS NOTHING LIKE SLEEPING IN YOUR OWN BED!!! Now that things have settled down a bit at his house, I'll be staying back at my place most of the time.

I've been swimming a lot and I feel great, but the chlorine is kickin my a*%!!! They put sooooo much chlorine in the pool...it kinda reminds me of step 2...lol!!! But seriously, the smell doesnt come all the way off me or my swimsuits after showering and washing, and everything I wear in the pool gets bleached like 3 shades lighter of what it originally was :-( Plus, dont get me started on my hair...it is seriously taking a beating!!! That cant be good, but I'm really beggining to enjoy it.

Waiting Period; Day 20

Hello all!!! No new symptoms to report. Just some tingling still and some pimples on my face. It's not too bad though. Still waiting on the booster though.

I'm sooooo happy it's Friday!!! This week has been soooooo long and draining. I'm looking forward to getting so much sleep this weekend. I went swimming last night with buff dude :-) It was nice. He even mentioned maybe going out to somewhere other than the gym tonight after work, but I.D.K. if I'm in a good mental place right now to do that. I dont wanna get hella attached or anything. I know I'm probably reading too much into it too early, but I cant help but be cautious because of H and the last dude who made me sad :-( We'll see though, maybe I'll decide to go if he really ends up calling me. He's a sweet guy and I enjoy our convo and gym sessions.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!!!

Waiting Period; Day 19

I had some mild tingling this morning but nothing major. The booster should be here any day now and as soon as it comes, I'M ON THAT G THANG...lol!!! I'm so ready for this to be over!

I've had a really long week...work has been hectic and there are soooo many things going on in my personal life. My BFF's mother's service is today so hopefully things will settle down a bit after this. I havent been getting much rest staying at his house so I'm pretty exausted...I cant wait till friday night so I can go to bed knowing I aint gotta wake up for sh*t :-)

I had physical therapy for my back esterday afternoon, and it made it SUPER TENDER!!! She told me not to run or do any major working out for about 2 weeks, but that I could still swim. She also gave me some strengthening exercices to do. Things are going ok with my new friend from the pool :-) We havent made any plans to hang out but he calls me everyday to chat for a bit...thats just my pace right now, I cant get "involved" with anyone at the moment obviously. I've even thought about calling it quits already but my good friend "Hopeful" said there was nothing wrong with having a friend to talk to and hang out with, he really is fun to talk to and he is HELLA fine so this whole thing is a confident booster and he makes me laugh :-)

Have a great day everyone

Waiting Period; Day 18

Bleh...I'm kinda hung over today; I over did it last night with my friends :-( The worst part is I work a 17 hour day today!!! Oh well, I'll get through it, I'm a pro...lol!!! I hadnt drank since the 4th, but I've been staying with my friend who's mom passed, and some of our friends came over last night to cheer him up and we ended up staying up late and having a few cocktails. I dont feel sick or anything, I'm just HELLA tired...Hennessey and minimal sleep dont go well together...

As far as symptoms go, things are pretty much the same. The minor tingling here and there and the pimples. I think when I drink, it brings the tingles out more...

"Wkd", nice to hear from you my friend!!! It makes my day to check my blog and see your comments, you have been a great friend and support system to me. You can also email me if you'd like ; itsmyyear2009@gmail.com. I'm excited that you are starting soon and I love your positive energy, it lifts my spirits. The hub has had lots of negativity abou Resolve on it lately but I try not to pay it ny attention because it will just stress me out. About your question on the waiting period after the booster, "Hopeful" and I were just discussing that last night...I know, it's wierd but Resolve's instructions say to wait 4-6 weeks after the booster then test. I'm eager to test ASAP, but I may wait the full 90 days if the waiting period from the booster ends before my 90 days.

Waiting Period; Day 17

Hi everyone!!! No new symptoms to report. I havent felt any tingling since yesterday morning as far as I can remember and my patch of pimples seems to be clearing up some.

The weather is good today and for the last two days, I have woke up with high spirits. I had a good day yesterday (busy but good) and I feel like today is gonna be a good one too :-)

I'm still waiting on the booster to arrrive. I'ma crack that bad boy open as soon as I get it...lol!!! I saw on "Love's" blog that the taste is worse than the original detox so I wont be looking forward to that part. In the email Resolve sent me after I ordered the booster, they said I dont have to eat before doses and I can mix it with any type of juice so the booster seems more lenient (sp?) than the original detox. After the booster, I wait 4 or 6 weeks to test so if I'm not mistaken, that may move my testing date up earlier in September...that would be SUPER!!! When I get the booster, I'll calculate it out and post my new test date (if there is one) when I figure it out.

Have a great day everyone :-)

Waiting Period : Day 16

Hey guys, so I ordered the booster. I told resolve I had an OB (which is a lie) and they sent me the link to pay the shipping so they could send it out. I cant wait!!! I'm not looking forward to any funly taste there may be, I'm glad I'll be doing the booster. I feel like it will give me a better chance of testing negative for H at the end of all this (if this stuff really works).

I met a SUPER hot guy at the pool yesterday!!! I know as of now I cant persue anything serious but it feels nice to feel wanted by a freakin hot ass guy!!! He was lookin soooooo good yall :-)I did exchange numbers with him so we shall see where this takes me. I definetly have my guard up from the last dude and of course I gotta keep the whole H in the front of my mind, but I'm still interested in "investigating this situation"...lol!!!

I've had some mild tingling this morning, but I'm not too worried about it. othe than that and my pizza face, I havent had any new symptoms. My pimples are actually clearing up and I dont se any new ones sprouting yet. I hope everyone is doing well. I'll holla :-)

Waiting Period; Day 14

So I am deterimined to get the booster!!! It has been suggested to me to email them back and tell them I am getting an outbreak...though dishonest, I think I just may do it!!! I really want to be as detoxed as possible by the test date. Someone on the hub mentioned that you wait 6 weeks post the booster to test, so if I order it now and get it next week sometime, it shouldnt alter my test date too much, if at all.

As far as symptoms, my face is HELLA breaking out in tiny pimples on the right side of my face :-( I feel like I'm 15 again with all these blemishes. Even though I've had mild acne with pimples here and there since I was a teen, I dont usually get this many!!! They arent big and deep like step 1 pimples, they are small and just as annoying as the big ones. I believe these are the same type of pimples "Hopeful" has been mentioning for the last few weeks. Oh well, thats life on Resolve. As far as the tingling, I really dont recall having any yesterday or today. I say little or mild tingling everyday because I obbsess about feeling something so much that I think my mind actually convinces my body I'm feeling something, but I really dont think there has been any tingling for days.

The weather has been not so great the last couple days here. That usually makes me down. On top of that, my morning client was mentioning how much she wanted to die again yesterday and not long after I left that job for the day, my best friend called me to inform me that he just found his 46 year old mother dead!!! I'm so so sad for him and his sister. I'll be staying with him for the next week or so until he feels he doesnt need someone with him every night, so I will do my best to stop at home to update this. If I miss a day here and there, you all know it's because I couldnt get enough privacy to get online and post.

Well, best of luck to you all and I hope you all have a great weekend. Stay optomistic and dont sweat the small things. Let us all count our blessings and enjoy our lives as much as we can. Tomorrow isnt promised to any of us, and when a true tragedy hits our lives and shakes our world up, only then do we begin to realise how much we let ourselves miss out on because of issues that seemed so IMPORTANT at the time we are dealing with them.

Waiting Period;Day 13

So I emailed Resolve yesterday asking them if they thought I should order the booster just to be safe since I did a lot of drinking on the detox. I told them I wasnt really having symptoms currently besides some minor tingling here and there. They emailed back and said there was no need for me to do it and to just let my body clear out. I was kinda dissapointed because I wanted to do it just to be safe and I wanted to get all the tests done before my 24th birthday in October because my health insurance expires then and if symptoms come up later and I have to do the booster, I dont want my waiting period to extend past my birthday :-(

Nothing really to report symptom wise. I may have had some slight tingling last night, but I'm not sure if I really felt it, or if I'm obbsessing over it so much, my mind had me thinking I thought I felt it... My face is getting pimply again too. Not as bad as step 1, but I'm using my old acne products now, and they still dont seem to be working so I'm thinking that these pimples are probably "clearing symptoms".

I went on the hub yesterday for the first time and there is a lot of negativity on that page. Not saying there isnt a good reason for it, but I'm trying to stay as optomistic and high spirited as possible right now, and let me tell you; that is not a place that will help my state of mind at this point.

I'm a little down today. Trying to stay chipper, but I feel like I may be falling back into a small depression, and I was feeling so good lately :-( Some is my own personal stuff away from Resolve, and the rest is from things that have to do with Resolve and the whole H thing. The weather has been pretty crappy this morning too, that may have something to do with it.

Waiting Period; Day 12

Hello Everyone!!! Nothing new to report as far as symptoms go. I dont recall feeling any tingling yesterday or so far today either. I'm gonna email resolve after this post and see what they say about me taking the booster. I'm not really feeling any H symptoms but I did do a lot of drinking on the detox so I'd rather be safe than sorry. Plus, my skin was hella clear on step 2 and now I'm starting to get some minor pimples again so I want it for that purpose too :-)

I've been eating pretty healthy still and keeping my alcohol intake to a minimum lately, or at least by my standards...lol!!! Seriously though, I drank on the 4th of July weekend but none since then and none for about a week before that. I'm really trying not too because I feel better when I'm not drinking 3-4 times a week and it makes working out and losing weight easier because I'm not getting the extra calories and I'm not getting hang overs :-) Part of the reason I was drinking so much in the past is because I was depressed about H but since I actually feel like this is working/ will work for me, I have been more up beat and dont feel as much of a need to drink my problems away. I still like to drink socially when I'm out with friends or family but getting away from it for a couple weeks helped me clear my head and realise how much it was actually making things worse when I was self medicating with it. I know alcohol is a depressant, but I dont smoke or do any other type of drugs so when I'm in "THAT MOMENT" my mind set tells me that having a drink is the only way I can deal with anything at the moment. I was still working out when I was drinking frequently, but I think now that I have slowed down on the cocktails, the gym has actually kinda taken the place of the liquor. I feel great when I use exercise as an outlet...it's much healthier and much more effective. Life isnt sucking so much right now at the moment...hopefully it will stay that way :-) I hope you all are doing well. Have a great Thursday.

Waiting Period; Day 11

It is such a beautiful morning here in Northern California! I hope the good weather is blessing you all as well...there is something so uplifting about a beautiful summer day! It makes me just wanna quit work, call up loved ones, and have a huge BBQ or something :-)

Nothing new to report here. I dont recall any tingling yesterday and I havent had any so far today. I'm still feeling pretty upbeat in general and optomistic about Resolve working despite the negative buzz I've heard lately. I start school mid August so I'm trying to fit in as much gym workouts and extra work hours as possible before then.

I'm HELLA sore from working out and my new job...some is good soreness and some is bad :-( My cousin's friend has been helping me with my toning workout at the gym and let me tell you, he is no joke...lol!!! He is hella buff and he works out like 3 hours a day so he knows his stuff and he pushes me, but the soreness from that is a good sore, like I'm working muscles I dont normally work. The bad soreness is a strain I feel in my lower back. I do in home care while I'm putting myself through school and my newest client doesnt have a lift and cant help support any of her own weight. There is a technique her long term attendant showed me to get her in and out of bed and what not, but I'm much taller than she is and that technique isnt working for me. Weather it's my height or I'm just not doing it right, I'm either going to have to find a technique that will work for me or I'm gonna have to quit. I'm only 23, and this back has to last me the rest of my existance and this is only my second week at this job.

My good mood and this good weather has me thinking about taking a vacation at some point before school starts back up. Lol...I may just be spontaneous and plan a trip to Australia!!! Chatting with "Wkd" has me wanting to go there!!! I'm thinking about clear lake or something not too far from home but not to close :-) Well I hope everyone is enjoying this beautiful humpday as much as I am! Be safe out there and stay optomistic.

Waiting Period; Day 10

No new symptoms. Still some minor tingling down below but nothing major. I feel pretty good for the most part. Now that I'm just waiting to test, I'm trying to keep myself as busy as possible to keep my mind off this situation a little during the day. The suspense is killing me!!! I got a long way to go too...lol!!!

Waiting Period; Day 9

I hope everyone had a great holiday weekend!!! Nothing much to report that's new. I had some very minor tingling over the weekend, but not like it was a a week or two ago. I do have a painful small pimple on the back of my scalp and I am starting to get more pimples than I have had the past few weeks. My face got really clear in step 2, but I have always had some mild acne since high school so I guess things are just going back to normal in my body since I have been off Resolve. Hopefully the H wont go back to normal as well :-( I didnt work out yesterday and I ate HELLA food on saturday and sunday so after work this evening, I hope I have the energy I need to go full on at the gym tonight...wish me luck!!! Have a great day everyone :-)

Waiting Period; Day 6

I'm feeling pretty good this morning :-) Nothing new to report as far as symptoms go. I havent noticed any tingles since tuesday or wednesday. Yesterday was the first day I broke my workout streak this week but I didnt have the time to make it there....I WILL RETURN TODAY THOUGH!!! Lol :-) Since I have been off step 2 and been working out pretty much every day, I feel much happier...I guess realisng those endorphins (sp?) really does help huh? I know working out isn't the only reason I've been feeling better, but it definetly helps!!! I recommend it to everyone.

For "Wkd", I think it's great you ordered Resolve. Even with the negative buzz going on right now, I still feel pretty optomistic about the whole thing. I think it would be great if you kept a blog on your experience!!! Not only would it be great support for the rest of us but I find it to be kind of theraputic for me to keep a blog. Sharing my feelings and experience about H with you guys and seeing that so many others out there can relate is a big help to me. Not only have a gotten great support and advice, but I have made some great friends too :-) Keep me updated on whats going on with you and good luck!!!

Waiting Period; Day 5

Good evening all!!! Nothing too new to report....I dont recall having any tingling today so hopefully thats a good sign. The outbreak I thought was on it's way never showed up and I dont think it will. I started my period last night and in the past, if I felt an outbreak coming on and my period came around the same time, it usually meant the outbreak was right there too....but not this time!!! Hopefully thats a good sign :-)

I hada pretty good day today; as of right now I feel like things in general are looking up for me so hopefully my good luck and hapiness will continue on through the summer, and Resolve will add to the good news streak by my test date in September.

Well, I am going to join my family now in watching the Michael Jackson 30th Aniversary special and what not now so good night to you all and stay optomistic!!!

Waiting Period Day 4; PART 2

I just want to thank all of you again for all of your support!!! Thank you so much for your encouraging comments "wkd" and "Hopeful". I also noticed two new bloggers for those who are interested in following some blogs of newer members to our community.

Optomistic @ http://www.blogger.com/profile/02512128686554592190

and

Natural Researcher @ http://resolvethejourney.blogspot.com/

Good luck to you both and thanks for jeeping a blog on your experience :-)

Waiting Period Day 4

Nothing much different to report today...I had some more tingling last night but none so far this morning. The last few days it has been more specific to the left side of "down there", but I still dont have an outbreak. I'll keep my fingers crossed that one wont show up. Other than that, I'm having no other signs or symptoms of any kind that I'm noticing.

I was kinda thinking about testing sometime in the next week or so, just to have a piece of paper for my records so I can have something to compare it with on 9-25-09. When I got diagnosed, it was from my gyno looking at an outbreak so I have never officially been blood-tested for H. I think I'm gonna go to the Customer Service office at Kaiser and see that tests are covered by my insurance and what I can take there just to try and save some money on that. I'm nervous about going into the gyno though and requsting a test now and then coming back in september for another one...I have a feeling since they already know I have H, that they will give me a hard time about it and it will be humiliating. It's worth it to try though right?

Waiting Period Day 3

I calculated it out last night and my first testable day is September 25th. That seems sooooo far away :-(

I slept for like twelve hours from yesterday evening to this morning. I feel pretty good this morning. The sensitivity I was feeling yesterday seems to be gone with no signs of an outbreak as of right now. I did have some more severe (than the normal tingling I've been having throughout Resolve) tingling this morning but there's not too much going on right now. I'll wait a few weeks and if there are no symptoms left including the tingles, I wont do the booster, but if the tingles are still present and any other symptoms occur, I'm gonna order the booster with the quickness!!!

Waiting Period Day 2

My energy level seems like it is adjusting back to normal from the fatigue I was having with step 2. I'm still hella tired because I was out in S.F. all afternoon and evening yesterday and then got up at 4:30 a.m. this morning to do my workout before work. This morning was the first time since step 2 that I was able to do all of my routine without feeling like I was gonna pass out after...it felt great!!!

I am having a little sensitivity in the down south area, I cant quite tell yet if I am just being paranoid or if it is an outbreak coming on. I havent really had any tingling to signal one, so I'll just have to wait it out and see. If it is an outbreak, I should know by tomorrow or soon after.

Wating Period Day 1

So today is my first day not having to do the detox, and man that is a great feeling!!! In the last few days, it seems like my tingles have gotten milder and milder. Hopefully they will just stop coming soon :-) I havent had an outbreak since the 2nd or 3rd week on step 1 and before that, I hadn't had an outbreak since like December 2008. Even though Love's results were discouraging, I still feel pretty optomistic about the whole thing...what else can I do right? No use in stressing out over it for the next 90 days.

Now that I'm off the detox, I plan on working out even harder since I should have more energy and I can eat mostly fruits and veggies now that I dont have to eat more substance for those drops. I'm gonna try to be as healthy as my self control will allow me to be in the next 90 days :-) and hopefully even after.

Step 2; Extension Day 4---MY FINAL DOSE!!!

I just took my final dose!!! I am finally done with taking Resolve (unless I end up needing to take the booster). Now I just wait, and hopefully everything will turn out okay.

Love said she ordered the booster to see how that goes, but she says her getting reinfected is impossible because she has not been with anyone in any way. That is a little discouraging but all we can do is hope the booster works for her for good this time and that Resolve will work for all of us taking it too.

I know anything is possible in this world of ours, but I just can't grasp the idea that they found a way to get the antibodies out of our system temporarily...Because like chicken pox, once you have the antibodies, even if it never comes back again, you still have the virus and it's antibodies in your blood (from what I understand). I even asked a few people if they thought it was possible for Resolve to work that way and they all thought/think Resolve is a scam but all said they didnt think that testing negative for antibodies when it's still in your system is possible. None of them were doctors or anything, but thats what I would think too. Who knows, I cant drive myself crazy with this for the next 90 days, so I am going to try and remain as optomistic as possible.

Step 2; Extention Day 4

IT'S MY LAST DAY!!!! It felt like it would never come :-) I havent really experienced much tingling the last couple days either...if any it was super mild and not that frequent. Still having some bowel issues but it's nothing I cant handle...lol!!!

I woke up this morning and told myself that it is a new day. I started getting depressed again earlier this week, but I told myself this morning that wasnt gonna do that again (atleast right now)...It's summertime and I had/have certain goals I want to achieve by the time the next semester starts in August. I want to enjoy my summer with my friends and family and finish my personal goals that I decided I was going to do for myself to improve my happiness and quality of life. Since being on Resolve (especially in the last month), I have become sort of secrative and anti-social with my friends and family and that's not me. Of course I'm not going to tell them about Resolve, but I am going to start spending the time with them that I used to.

To improve my mood today and get myself on track, I am going to start with a nice breakfast and the drops, of course...lol!!! Then I'm gonna go work out and tan (I love tanning; it's a very relaxing 15 minutes and I havent done it since last saturday). After that, I'm gonna come home and clean up my room and put my laundry in. Than I am going to have a BBQ with some of my closest friends that I haven't spent very much time with lately. Tomorrow, I have pllans to attend the Gay Pride Parade in San Francisco with my best friend but I haven't heard back from him on that yet so it may not work out. If we dont end up doing that, I'll do pretty much the same routine as today, only accept for the drops (since I'll be finished :-)) and the BBQ, I'll read a book.

Step 2; Extension Day 3 PART 2

Maaaaannnnnn!!!! I.D.K. if it's the fruits and veggies or the resolve, but I'm having a lot of gas and not normal stool...It's not the "mud butt", but not far from it :-( I think the rash I'm experiencing is some sort of fungus because the original spots are dried up, but there is a new cluster that itches hella bad and some individual dots spread out over my fore-arm. I'ma make an appointment to go in and get something for it. I put some tinactin on it earlier to see if it would help, and it may have, but I'm still itchin though. I can resisit scratchin it while I'm awake, but it's not as easy while I'm sleeping. I'm tired as always, but I'm all ready for bed so it's curtains as soon as I sign off of here!!!

Step 2; Extension Day 3

I ate a good amount of dried fruit this morning compared to what I ate yesterday because of how sick I got. I havent thrown up yet, but my stomach started to burn about 10 min. after the dose. I'm trying to eat some carrots to help and drink water and it seems to be working. The burning is beggining to go away, so hopefully I'll keep this dose down. I think I will just have to wait until sunday when I'm done to eat just fruits and veggies because my stomach is notcoping well with these last few days of the extension. I obviously need to eat more substance before these bigger doses.

I only had about 3ml of activator left this morning so I had to mix it with lemon juice to make 5ml. So my FINAL 3 DOSES :-) will be with the lemon juice. I CANT WAIT TILL TOMORROW IS OVER!!! It will be great to not have to take this anymore. I have more of that rash thing on my arm...I was thinking of going to the Dr to get it looked at incase it's a fungus or something, but I'm too afraid that it may come up that I'll have to admit I was taking Resolve and that this may be whats causing the "rash".

I was thinking about ordering the booster ahead of time just incase I'll need it so I wont have to wait for it to come when/ if the time comes to take it. Does anyone know if the booster is free and we just pay shipping, or is there a charge for it and if so, how much?

HAPPY FRIDAY ALL :-)

TODAY'S DOSE WAS A MESS!!!!

So, about 1/2 hour after I took my morning dose, I began to get hella nauseated. I tried my hardest not to let it come up, but my body was not havin it!!! I threw up everything I had in me (at least it felt that way). Even after I was done vomiting, I was real light headed and shakey and I had these terrible stomach cramps. It was so bad, I had to leave work and go home to get in the bed. I also had some wierd gas and stool withiin a couple hours later. After I got some rest and recovered from how awful I was feeling, I emailed Resolve to see if I should re-take the dose and they told me to forget that dose and move on.

It was wierd because I didnt eat much less than what I normally have been eating with my morning doses but maybe the 18 drops was my limit. After I felt better this afternoon and had a bigger meal, I took the regularly scheduled afternoon dose and everything seems to be fine. Other than the usual symptoms, and the awful mishaps this morning, nothing has changed but my confidence in this product.

I actually didnt start getting nauseated until after I read that Love tested positive again....maybe the stress that hit me from that helped make me sick this morning. I dont want to be negative here, but maybe the company did find a way to make H antibody levels undetectible for a while, but then they go back up after a cetrtain period of time. Oh well, I'm still gonna continue to finish what I started here...I knew this was a gamble before I even went through with it. As sad as I will be if it doesnt work, I had a life before Resolve and I will still have one after Resolve, whatever my results are. Hopefully everything will work out fine, but for now, all I can do is stay focused on what I'm doing now and try not to get distracted by this. My heart goes out to Love and I hope it was a false positive and that the 10 day detox will take care of everything. Stay happy everyone!!!!

Step 2; Extension Day 2

Goodmorning. Nothing new to report. Same symptoms as always with this step. I measured out my remaining activator last night and it's a little over 10ml which means it will only last through today so I'll have to get the lemon juice for the last 2 days of the extension (tomorrow and saturday).

I havent actually visited Love's blog in a few days, but someone else's blog said in her last HSV test she took it showed she was positive for HSV1 again after testing negative on two tests a few months back. Hmmmmmmm.....this is discouraging. Do you think it's possible that this stuff only works temporarily somehow to fool the tests and comes back later? Thats hella wierd. It's possible she could have gotten re-infected but from what her blog entries say, she hasnt been dating even after she tested negative. Makes me wonder....

Step 2; Extension Day 1

Goodmorning all!!! Today is my first day of the extension which is 17 drops and 5ml. The 3-dot situation on my arm had kinda turned into a little rash, and it's still lingering. I had a little bit of tingling last night and I'm tired as always, but other than those same 3 symptoms, nothing else is really going on.

I was talking to my sister last night and she is a health nut so I decided that I was gonna try her suggestion of a raw food diet for a while. I know Resolve says you dont have to change your diet for the detox, but I figure since I did do some drinking and smoking and haad a little caffine here and there, that it couldnt hurt to be as healthy as possible while my body is "clearing" in the 90 day waiting period. I dont know if I will be able to follow through with it for the full 90 days but I'll do my best....lol!!! I eat a lot of fruits and veggies anyways and I'm not a big meat eater, but I think the bread and dairy part is gonna be the hardest for me. I told myself I was starting today so wish me luck :-)

Day 15; Step 2

IT'S MY LAST DAY!!! I'm so happy I get to say that :-) I am going to do the extension because I still have that funky rash dot thing and I had some minor tingling last night but I'm still happy that regular step 2 is over. I feel pretty good today...it's only tuesday and I'm already exausted but my spirits are high at the moment.

Step 2; Day 14

Good morning everyone!!! Sorry for not posting yesterday, I was in a situation where I couldnt get online. I had my drops with me but not the dose sheet...It was supposed to be 12 drops again yesterday but I did 14 to be safe and today is 14 too. Tomorrow, I believe is 16 and then the extension. For those of you who havent been reading this for too long, the reason I'm doing 15 days instead of 14 is because I didnt increase my dose the 3rd day by accident, but Resolve told me to continue on as directed so I have an extra day. I dont think I'll have enough activator for the whole extension so I think I'll have to buy the lemon juice.

No really any new symptoms to report; Just the same mild tingling, fatigue, and wierd dots on my arm. I dont think they're getting bigger, but they do still itch a little. My stomach has been a little upset, but I'm not sure if it's the Resolve or what I've been eating. I didnt have my juice yesterday or this morning, so I had to mix with water and it was terrible, but not unbearable.

Step 2; Day 12 PART TWO

So I took my second dose for the day and I noticed that I am begining to get a little light headed and warm after I take the doses. I'm hoping it will pass, but I doubt it. It will probably just keep getting worse until I'm done with it all. Not much tingling today, just the little bit I had this morning. Tired as usual...lol!!! I feel like I'm basically repeating my self in all these entries since step 2 :-) But that's how I'm feelin so I put it on here.

Step 2; day 12

Today's dose was pretty intense!!! The fatigue hit me pretty soon after I took it. I'm still gonna try and stick to my program though. If I work out earlier in the day when I THINK I have more energy, it's easier to stick to. It's hard sometimes to get a work out in early during the week though because of my work schedule. Oh well, all I can do is try though I guess :-)

I had some minor tingling last night and this morning. Those three wired bumps on my arm were itching in the middle of the night...I ended up scratching them and now they look a little bigger and more red.

I'm pretty sure I will end up doing the extension. I dont think the bottle of Y will last that long though. It's already 1/2 way gone and the rest of the doses from now through the extension require 5ml per dose. I may end up having to get lemon juice in the extension. If we arent supposed to have Vitamin C though, why do they say use lemon juice? Is there no vitamin C in lemon juice? And how does lemon juice act the same as bottle Y? If that was the case then how come we couldnt just use lemon juice the chole time? Resolve confuses me sometimes, but let's not get PARANOID!!! I'm tryina stay positve here, so I'm going to get off that...I was just wondering though.

Step 2; Day 11 PART TWO

Not a whole lot going on this evening...I had some minor tingling this evening but nothing big. It looks like instead of 2 dots on my arm, now there's 3. I have been having some pretty intense dreams lately...Fearfully Hopeful mentioned this also on step 2 so I guess that must be another symptom. Like I mentioned lately, I been eating a lot more the last couple days but I think it's just because I have been less depressed and I have been working out a lot more.

I took a nap today but I'm still hella tired so I'm in for the night, headed for bed as soon as I finish typing this. I cant wait to be done with this; I can see the "light at the end of the tunnel"...lol!!! I have 4 days left on the regular step 2 and I think if I am still having tingling (which I probably will) when I'm done with those 4 days, I'll do the extension just to better my chances. Well, I hope you are all doing well tonight!!! HAPPY FRIDAY :-)

Step 2; Day 11

Goodmorning everyone!!! Today is my last day on 10 drops and then I go to 12 drops for the next two days. I had a little tingling yesterday and some slight tingling this morning. I'm tired, as always, but I didnt go to bed till around 3a.m. and I had to be up at 7a.m. so that's not surprising.

NEW SYMPTOM: This actually appeared two or three days ago, but I didnt think to report on it until today. It started out as two tiny tiny dots on my left fore-arm. They almost looked like needle-tip sized pimples. I wasnt paying attention yesterday and scratched it by mistake so now it looks like there may be a couple more, or they have gotten irritated or something, but it's still a super tiny area. Hope it doesnt keep growing!!!

Step 2; Day 10

I woke up feeling great this morning :-) The sun was shining and I felt well rested. I took my morning dose; I'm up to 10 drops and 5 ml for today and tomorrow...bbbblllleeeeeehhhhh!!! I held my nose, drank it down quick, and chased it with HELLA water but I could still taste it on my tongue after :-(

No symptoms to report so far today. I think my skin is now actually more clear than it was before I even started Resolve.....maybe it really does clean you all the way out...Let's hope so :-)

Step 2; Day 9 PART TWO

Bleh!!! I just took my second dose for the day and I literally gagged and almost threw it right back up!!! This is awful stuff...and my goofy butt lost the paper with the dosages for step 2 so I had to email resolve and ask them to send me what doses I need to take for the rest of my detox. I havent checked my email yet but I hope they send me that by tonight so I can be ready for the morning.

Nothing new to report as far as symptoms; Dry eyes, hella tired, and a little bit of tingling earlier today. I think I'm gonna take a nap and then work out if I dont get up too late...that's the beauty of 24hr fitness; I can go anytime I feel like it :-) I worked my fanny off yesterday!!! My abs are pretty sore today so I think I'm just gonna do an hour of cardio and maybe some leg and arm weights tonight. I'M HELLA HUNGRY...OH MA GOODNESS!!! Yeah, I definetly think it was the depression killing my apetite and not resolve cuz now that I'm feeling better emotionally, I really feel like I could tear some shit up...lol!!! I ate a 1/2 a sandwich before I took my second dose, but that aint cuttin it :-)

Step2 ; Day 9

I'm getting ready to take my first dose for the day. I dont know how this is going to effect me because I'm going off of 3 hrs of sleep today and I have a long ass day ahead of me :-( I'm dreading how tired I'm gonna be but I'll just have to tough it out. I still have some tingling and as always since begging step 2, I'm exausted but nothing else really to report symptom wise.

I went out last night with a guy I knew back in high school. We ran into eachother last summer and exchanged numbers as a friend thing. I didnt see or hear from him after that until recently. He saw me out and about last month and text me. I wasnt sure if he was doing it as a friend thing or a dating thing so I didnt entertain it much because I was involved with someone. I ran into him yesterday and figured "what the hell" so I met him later in the evening and we talked for a few hours. It was all going fine, it seemed like strictly a friend thing until he began asking me "what I was looking for" with him. I told him I thought he was attractive but I wasnt looking for anything inparticular right now. He told me he wasnt looking for a girlfriend but we could kick it and if something happened then it was whatever. When he said that, I'm thinking he meant if we hung out more and started to grow on eachother then we could take it from there, but aparently he meant right then and there. Less than five minutes after that he was tryina kiss on me and push up on me like he was ready to fuck!!! I bet if I told him I had herpes he would have stepped the hell off...lol!!! Yeah, so I was like "F this" and went home. Some guys are such A-holes!!! So that's the end of that "friendship".

Step 2; Day 8

I took my 8 drops and 3ml and it didnt taste as bad as I thought it would, I guess I'm getting used to it now. I slept a lot yesterday; I took a two hour nap and went back to sleep a few hours later, sleeping another 9.5hrs through the night. This stuff is really kickin my butt!!! I did have some tingling last night...So much for the feeling of it being out of my body!!! Hopefully these are just the "clearing symptoms" Resolve talks about. I was reading another blog and someone suggested that the tingling could be nerve damage too. Who knows :-) Well, all in all, my spirits are still high and I am still feeling pretty confident that this may work for me.

I've had so much going on and been so tired lately that I havent been to the gym in about two weeks....AAAHHHH!!! I'm starting back today though. I'm meeting a friend there in about an hour. I'm feeling pretty tired now, but since I just got up not that long ago, I think I can pump out an hour or two at the gym and then come home and take a nap before work if I need to...lol!!!

Other than being tired, dry eyes, and tingling, I'm not really having any other symmptoms. My skin is staying the clearest it's been since I started Resolve and I have a little stomach discomfort at times throughout the day, but it seems that the constipation has subsided.

Step 2; Day 7---PART TWO

So I just finished my last dose for the day. Once I swallow the solution, my stomach gets a weird feeling for a sec...but it goes away pretty quickly. My eye balls are still hella dry and I feel like I cant get enough sleep. My little cousin was getting on my case this weekend for how many naps I was taking when I was babysitting/hanging out with them...lol!!! I cant help it, this stuff makes me exausted. Infact, when I'm done writing this, I'm gonna catch a quick nap before I go out to run some errands. I think I felt some mild tingles after this dose, but if it was tingles and not my mind playing tricks on me, they were very light...almost unnoticable.

Tomorrow I go up to 8 drops and 3ml for the next two days...the end is coming near!!! I cant wait for this to be done :) My last day on this step will be Tuesday the 23rd, unless I am still experiencing symptoms, then I will have to do the extra 4 days. I spent an extra day on this step because I accidently repeateted the dosage for days 1 and 2 on day 3, but Resolve said I could continue on as directed, so instead of 14 days, I'm doing 15. Hopefully I wont have any symptoms and will be through with this stuff!!! Well, I'm bout to take my nap, so have a great afternoon :-)

Step 2; Day 7

Good morning all!!! MAN THIS ISH IS NASTY :-( I'm halfway done with this step!!! Hopefully I wont have to do any extensions of this...I cant say it enough how gross this is...and it makes my stomach turn while I'm drinking it even though I hold my nose to help mask the taste.

Still not feeling much of anything going on down there. I've been obsessing about it since last night, thinking about it so much waiting for a sensation to shoot through in that area, but nothing is really happening. Hopefully it will stay that way...I've been wondering what it would feel like to be HSV 2 free. I really felt like it wasnt in me anymore yesterday!!! I know there is a chance that it could start back up anytime between now and in my 90 day waiting period as "clearing symptoms" but I am much more optomistic that this will work now than before....hopefully it will :-)

I felt so good yesterday that i began thinking of changes I was going to make in my life, starting today, that would help keep me feeling that good on a regular basis. Even if this detox doesnt work for me, I still want to have a better quality of life. After all, weather it works or not, I still have to live so I may as well do it in the best way possible right? BUT I'M GONNA STAY POSITIVE AND SAY IT WILL WORK!!! I know I probably sound crazy...lol!!! Like I had an epiphany or something, but I'm tired of being unhappy and the way I felt yesterday is a feeling that I want to have more often.

Step 2; Day 6

Hello All!!! I took both my doses for today and good god...even with juice, 6 drops and 3 ml of solution is awful!!! I'm not looking forward to uping the doses at all as far as flavor :-( On the bright side, I can honestly say, I have not had any tingling all day!!! I dont wanna jump the gun, but this is the first day in a long time that my body has not felt the presence of the HSV2 virus. This makes me very happy and very hopeful...I know it's way too early to jump to any assumptions here, but the way I feel today makes me think that this really may work!!! That would be fantastic!!!

If this really worked, I wouldnt completely out myself for had having HSV, but a few people close to me do know, and I know two people who are infected. I would be more than happy to recommend this to them if it ends up working. My mom, my BFF, and an old high school teacher of mine who has become a great friend know of me being infected. The only person in my life, besides you all of course, who knows I am trying Resolve is my BFF. I didnt want to hear the negativity of "dont be fooled" by my teacher and mom and didnt want to get anyone else's hopes up if this didnt work. My BFF has been super supportive of me since day one of my infection and she was very supportive of the idea of me trying resolve. I'm feeling quite optomistic today though and I hope that this lasts. Until tomorrow all...Have a great evening :-)

Step 2; Day 5

This is my last day at 4 drops and 1 ml. Tomorrow the dose goes up to 6 drops and 3ml for the next two days. I am not looking forward to the taste......bleh!!! Other than that things are going well. Some mild tingling here and there and still a little constipated, but the skin is still looking good and besides being tired, my overall health feels ok.

I'm happy to say I am feeling much less depressed today. I was feeling somewhat better yesterday, but today is an even bigger improvement. Hopefully this will last...being depressed hella sucks and makes everything else in life harder to deal with :-( I ate a little more last night and today than I have been eating for like the last week...maybe it was the depression killing my apetite and not step 2. I still feel like I have to force food down even when I'm hungry but I can get more down and I feel better after I have eaten. It's still not much though. I'm losin weight so it's not all bad right?...lol!!!

Dry Eyeballs...

So I took my afternoon dosage not too long ago. Another symptom I am begining to notice is dry eyes. Not sure if it's an allergy thing or a symptom, but my eyes were not feeling like this last week and it seems like they have been getting dryer and dryer. It's not unbearable...just a little uncomfortable. I better get some eye drops or something. I also had some very realistic dreams last night and this morning. "Fearfully Hopeful" mentioned the same thing with her on step 2. I hope that doesnt last long...I hate to wake up in the morning and still be effected by my dreams, it's just wierd.

I remembered my juice this afternoon...HURRAY!!! I gotta tell you, the pomogranite juice does wonders for blocking out the awful taste. I know I'm only on 4 drops right now, and the flavor will probably get stronger, but I'm satisifed for now :-) I still feel like I have to poop but I havent been able to go yet today...lol!!! Thats so wierd to me sharing that with you guys, but I talk like that with my friends and family anyways and I guess because we all share something so personal on here, it's not a big deal :-) "Fearfully Hopeful" mentioned kind of the opposite symptoms. Seatortuga mentioned sleeplessness and she is on step 1...I too had trouble sleeping pretty much the whole first half of step 1. I sometimes had trouble sleeping prior to resolve anyways because of mild ensomnia but I could tell that step 1 definetly had something to do with it.

Step2; Day 4

Okay, so I officially have issues...lol!!! I just figured out right now that instead of upping my dose yesterday like I was supposed to, I took the same dose a s the first two days. So I'm on day 4 of step 2 but my dosage is only at what it should have been on day 3. Not a big deal I suppose...I'll email resolve anyways to see what they say, but I'm pretty sure they will just tell me to continue on as directed. I forgot my juice again this morning so I had to mix it with water and I cant stress enough how gross this stuff is...it leaves an awful taste on my tongue.

I still have some tingling but my face is still pretty clear compared to what it was on step 1. I think this stuff may be making me a little constipated too...TMI, I know but the whole point of this blog is to keep it real so I'm definetly having some bowel issues. I have some gas pains and I feel like I have to go number 2, but it's not happening. My apetite isnt what it normally is either. At first I though it was because of the depression, but now I think this may have something to do with it. It says take immediately after food, so I try to eat something while I'm waiting the 3 minutes but I have to force whatever it is down and I havent eaten anything besides what I do right before the 2 doses...wierd huh? I dont usually eat a lot at one time but I normally eat small stuff frequently throughout the day like a yogurt here and some fruit there....Oh well, I guess I'll get used to it. It makes everything so much more uncomfortable throughout the day when your movements arent normal though.

Step 2; Day 3

I just took my afternoon dose of drops. I got kind of light headed and a little bit of a headache shortly after I took it but that only lasted for a little while. I'm pretty tired, I dont know if this is because of my state of mind lately or a side effect of step 2; probably a little bit of both. I went to bed around midnight last night and got up at 7:30 this morning for work. I got off my first job around ten this morning and came home and slept all afternoon until my evening job. I totally feel like I could go to bed right now, but I'm going to try and hang for a few hours to get stuff done.

I have some tingling but not much, I really hope this stuff is working. My skin has cleared up HELLA much...HURRAY :-) I'm back to being a young sexy thang...lol!!! No, but really, the last few pimples I had while on step 1 are almost all clear and I havent developed any major new ones. The texture of my skin is better too. I use rubbing alcohol atleast twice per day on my face and I changed my face wash to a regular face scrub instead of boot-leg proactiv because it became un-affective about half way through step 1. I been drinking hella water too...even more than they reccomend usually. I'm still not eating much, I try to eat as much as I can before I take the drops because they say to take them immediately after food. I lost my measuring cup thingy that came with the detox and had to go to the drugstore to get something that would measure out liquid in ml's. When I took the morning dose today, I just guessed when it came to measuring out the 1ml of solution...ooops!!! I hope I wasnt too off, I just really didnt want to miss a dose because they are very specific in the instructions for step 2 to take it EXACTLY how they tell you. They even said only use the measurer provided, but I emailed them this morning and told them I couldnt find mine and they said it would be okay to get another one from the drugstore.

Fighter posted her Western Blot results today if anyone is interested in looking at them. Wow, this post has turned into a novel...lol!!! Well, thanks for listening guys...I love knowing that I have you all in my support network...I seriously dont think I could do this without you guys!!!
HAVE A GREAT NIGHT GUYS :-)

Step 2 ; Day 2 Entry Number Two

So I've taken all my drops for today... The only side effects I notice so far are fatigue and nausea. My stomach hurts no matter how much I eat before I take the dosage and I seem to be very tired, more than usual, the last couple days since I started step 2. Hope all goes well...I'll keep you all posted :-)

Step2; Day 2

Goodmorning all!!! I havent taken my morning drops yet because I spent the night out and forgot to bring the paper with the dosages. I'm pretty sure I remembered how many drops and how much solution but I didnt wanna take a chance and do it wrong, plus I forgot my juice. Ugg..speaking of, I spent the night with my auntie last night because I was hella stressin over dude still and I didnt bring my juice to take the drops so I mixed it with water cuz I didnt want to risk drinking anything she had with added vitamin C, and THAT IS SOME POWERFUL STUFF!!! The chlorine smell is awful and the taste wasnt great either...as the drops increase it will only get worse I know.

Also, the dircetions mention not to get it on your skin or clothes and like a dumb ass, when I was takin it down like a shot, I spilled some of it on my face!!! I wiped it off but I was worried about how it would effect my detox since some was spilled, and WHAT THE HELL MIGHT HAPPEN TO MY FACE!!! I dont want the Michael Jackson Syndrome...what's that called? Vilalago or something...lol!!! I'm having second thoughts about how safe this is...I dont think we should be ingesting anything that smells like that, but hell, at this point I would drink clorox if it got rid of herpes and didnt kill me!!!

Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement and support yesterday!!! It really helped lift my spirits when I read your comments this morning. I actually saw him yesterday to get my stuff from his house and he gave me a little closure, but I know he isn't giving me the full story. He says it's nothing to do with me, and I know someone said something about me he didnt like but rather thn asking me about it, he just cut me off like I was nothing to him. He has issues anyway...lots of emotional baggage from a recent divorce and things that he is still dealing with from being in the military for several years...so I'm sure it's a mixture of both...Oh well!!! I cant dwell on it forever. I'm still sad and I do love him, but everything happens fora reason so right now I need to take "Fearfully Hopeful's" advice and focus on me getting happy and healthy. If my test results come back negative, I'll be so happy I probably wont even remember his name and go find me a new man...lol!!!

I'm diggin "Fearfully Hopeful's" idea of a celebratory PROTECTED F*%$ if everything turns out well...lol!!! Dont get me wrong, I can go without it and I have since this, but it would be nice to know we are back to our old selves and can enjoy sex without worrying about the burden of infecting others.

I really just noticed that by the time I will be able to test for the virus, it will almost be my 24th birthday...that would be the best birthday ever!!!

Step 2; Day 1

So I just took my first dose of step 2. It smelled like chlorine, just like "Fearfully Hopeful" mentioned in her blog. I didn't really taste much but the dose is extremely low...it's only 2 drops of x and 1ml of y. I got organic pomogranite juice to mix it with since that's one of the juices they suggested. It's way better than organic natural cranberry juice because that stuff is hella bitter!!!! It said to take immediately after meals but since I had a terrible incident on saturday, I have hardly been able to eat anything since. I ate most of an apple and then took it and I do feel a little nauseated but I been feelin like that the last few days anyway. Hopefully the side effects listed for this step wont hit me too hard. I was lucky with most of the side effects listed in step 1 except for the pimples.

I've been super depressed since saturday!!! My heart is so so broken!!! I guess it's better in the long run anyway incase Resolve doesnt work. The guy I was seeing text me on saturday like 20 minutes before I was supposed to meet him for plans we had, and basically said it was over...WTF? Just like that after about five or six months with no explanation!!! I was and still am devistated because everything was fine between us a few hours before that. I guess everything happens for a reason though because if Resolve ends up not working, I would have had to make the decision to break up with him without giving him the real reason or telling him and risking his rejection. His reaction probably would have been the same as the text he sent me...lol!!! So better now right? :(

Sorry for babbling about my personal life but I figure this blog is a form of therapy for my HSV2 issues so I figure maybe letting it out here will help me get through my day a littl better. I must admit, I had been avoiding drinking as much as I could but I broke down last night and drank a lot before I went to bed to help ease the pain of my broken heart and my stress about the detox. It helped me sleep, but I still feel like shit today so I guess it wasnt really worth it...so much for day of rest huh? I'm going to stay commited to not drinking at ALL through step 2 though. It's only two weeks, I can do it...right? Well wish me luck with that!!!

Wierd Pimples

I'm getting a little concerned about some of the pimples I have been getting lately. It seems like some of them have very little to no white stuff but have hella fluid in them like a blister. And when I put pressure on them and then take it off, there is a large imprint left of the area that is filled with nothing but fluid and I can never squeeze all of it out. I know this is nasty and I dont know if I am describing this very well but I had 2 like that on my face and one on my collar bone. I've had mild acne since high school but I've never had a pimple like that before. I only started getting those like a week and a half ago...Hopefully now that step 1 is done, the pimples will get better with step 2.

Day of Rest

Nothing new to report for today. Had some tinling last night...I notice that after taking C is when most of the tingling occurs. Today I will take it pretty easy..atleast I hope to. Spet 2 begins tomorrow. I'm looking forward to getting this all over with.

Step1; Day 41-MY LAST DAY ON STEP 1 :-)

So I emailed Resolve yesterday about my question on the doses I had left. They advised me to take A, B, and C today and then stop taking step 1. So tomorrow will be my day of rest and then I will begin step 2 on Tuesday, hurray :-)

Step 1; Day 40

Nothing new to report. I still feel tingling and I still have the pimples. Is it just me or do pimples while on the detox hurt much more than pimples pre-Resolve? My stomach has been sort of upset the last few days but I'm not sure if it's the resolve, or my diet; I've been eating more yogurt, fruit, and cottage cheese than normal lately...I think :-)It may just be those things giving me the B.G.'s.

Fighter posted on her blog today...she is still negative according to her post. She hasnt picked up her western blot test results yet, but she says she will post them when she does. I guess reading that raised my spirits a little...Love posted saying she accidently changed her settings and thats why we couldn't see her blog. Hopefully I'm just being paranoid but I hope that Love and Fighter are really two seperate people who really took resolve and really got the results the claim, because it seems to me like they often post on the same days and are away from their blogs around the same days...I shouldnt dwell on that. I need to stay positive and beleive that this will work!!!

I WILL BE HERPES FREE!!!!

Step 1; Day 39 Part 3

I'm hella sleepy!!! Just took dose C for the night...not much to report but some serious tingling going on in the VJ area!!! My herpes is definetly letting me know it's still there...

I read an entry today from Techie that she posted a couple days ago...It looks like she basically tested positive for HSV on her western blot, but she said she tested early. Hopefully thats the reason why . . . She didnt seem too discouraged by it and she said she was going to re-test. I'll keep following her progress and keep yall updated.

Well, I have a big day tomorrow so I'm goanna go to bed. Tomorrow is "Fearfully Hopeful's" birthday!!!! Happy birthday gurl....hope your day goes exactly how you planned it...HOLLA :-)

Step1; Day 39 Part 2

So I finished taking B and decided I was gonna measure that too to see how much was left. There was more than 2 doses and I ended up spilling some trying to get it back in the bottle...yikes!!! To keep it real, I think I spilled some of A too when I was doing the same thing this morning...I dont think it really matters though; I have taken all the doses that were required for the detox and now I'm just finishing off the bottles for that lil extra push!!!

One symptom I have been having for the last week or so, but keep forgetting to mention is sore/tingling gums when I brush my teeth...I know, it sounds like I dont take care of my mouth and have gingivitis or something BUT THAT'S NOT TRUE, I SWEAR!!!...Lol!!! I'm a huge stickler about my teeth so I have always been a regular brusher and flosser and I always go to my routine dental appointments. I think the potency of the minerals is irritating my mouth a little, but it's not unbearable, like I said there's just a little sensitivty when brushing.

A few weeks ago I noticed that my bottles were getting a stronger smell, which is weird. They all smell and taste more like ammonia than when I first started them. I asked resolve about it and they asked have they been exposed to direct sunlight. I told them no, which is true as far as I know. If I take them with me because I know I am going to be away from home for a long time/ over night I keep them in a backpack or overnight bag on the floor of my car or in the trunk, so they wont be ruined by the sun. Even still, Resolve said that they should be fine and to continue taking them as directed. I also notice that where the liquids have drippled down the side of the bottle, the label has turned black...BLEH...I wonder what it makes my insides look like :-( Oh well!!! This is how desperate I am to get rid of my herpes...I'LL JUST ABOUT DO ANYTHING!

Step 1; Day 39

Goodmorning!!! So apparently I was wrong on how much I had left of step 1 in the bottles. I thought I should be finished with A and B by today, but after taking dose A today, I measured out the remaining liquid in the bottle and it was a little over 40ml, which is pretty much exactly 2 more doses. B has the same amount of liquid left and C has a little bit more. So I guess I will be taking all three steps until Sunday. I think C may have more than 1 or 2 doses left in it by monday so I am wondering if I should take up to 3 doses of C on monday (if there is that much or more left by then) since I will be done with A and B or if I should just take it once a day until it's gone. That's something I should probably email resolve about...lol!!! I dont wanna poison myself :) but I just wanna get this step over with!!! It seems like for the last few days I have been waking up thinking "this is probably the last day for this step" and then it's not...I just wanna move on to step 2 so I can be that much closer to being able to take the blood tests!!! Oh well, I guess I have no choice but to wait and be patient :-) Have a good day everyone!!!

Has anyone ever heard of this?

I know, I know...I should totally be sleeping right now instead of googling "herpes" but I saw this product's website around the same time I was looking into ordering resolve;

http://www.herpes-device-that-works.com/genital-herpes.html

I'd be interested in knowing if anyone has ever heard of this product or knows of anyone who has used it? The method sounds a little off, but I read a medical journal that was talking about a possible cure in the next twenty years that had a similar idea.

The difference was that in the medical journal, they were saying that a method would be developed to make ALL the HSV virus hiding in the CNS come out and when all the virus was active, antiviral meds (acyclovir basically) could be taken and would be able to destroy the HSV completly. The reason why antivirals dont cure herpes now is because during an outbreak and shedding, only some of the virus becomes active while the rest lays dormant out of the reach of our immune sytems and antivirals so during the time when medication is being taken, only the virus that is active at that time can be destroyed. So basically for this possible cure that was discussed in the medical journal, people would have to suffer one MASSIVE outbreak but then they would be HSV free. The down side to this, according to the article was that an outbreak like that would cause some SERIOUS nerve damage throughout the body. So I guess the 20 year gap between now and our cure is them trying to figure out how to make this work without destroying our nerves in the process...

Anyways, this device sounds crazy, but so did resolve right? And I'm trying that.... Let me know what you guys think about it if you get a chance to look at the website. Okay, FOR REALZ THIS TIME...Lol; Goodnight :-)

One last thing for tonight...

I tried to go on Love's blog to see if she had posted anything new since last week and everytime I clicked on it this afternon, it says that I havent been invited to read it so I cant...That's strange to me!!! Why just today is her blog not viewable to the public? Not only that, but I was and still am according to my profile, a follower on her blog, but here it appears she has given me the boot :-( That makes me wonder now... When I get down, I like to read her past posts where she was feeling like me and then skip to the ones where she found out she was negative. THAT SUCKS!!! Could it be that she really was working for resolve and now there is someting on there she is trying to hide? I just thought that was wierd...hopefully it's just late night paranoia and resolve works fine and I will be HSV negative in september... I'm about to be stressed about that now...bleh!!!