Goodmorning all!!! I havent taken my morning drops yet because I spent the night out and forgot to bring the paper with the dosages. I'm pretty sure I remembered how many drops and how much solution but I didnt wanna take a chance and do it wrong, plus I forgot my juice. Ugg..speaking of, I spent the night with my auntie last night because I was hella stressin over dude still and I didnt bring my juice to take the drops so I mixed it with water cuz I didnt want to risk drinking anything she had with added vitamin C, and THAT IS SOME POWERFUL STUFF!!! The chlorine smell is awful and the taste wasnt great either...as the drops increase it will only get worse I know.
Also, the dircetions mention not to get it on your skin or clothes and like a dumb ass, when I was takin it down like a shot, I spilled some of it on my face!!! I wiped it off but I was worried about how it would effect my detox since some was spilled, and WHAT THE HELL MIGHT HAPPEN TO MY FACE!!! I dont want the Michael Jackson Syndrome...what's that called? Vilalago or something...lol!!! I'm having second thoughts about how safe this is...I dont think we should be ingesting anything that smells like that, but hell, at this point I would drink clorox if it got rid of herpes and didnt kill me!!!
Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement and support yesterday!!! It really helped lift my spirits when I read your comments this morning. I actually saw him yesterday to get my stuff from his house and he gave me a little closure, but I know he isn't giving me the full story. He says it's nothing to do with me, and I know someone said something about me he didnt like but rather thn asking me about it, he just cut me off like I was nothing to him. He has issues anyway...lots of emotional baggage from a recent divorce and things that he is still dealing with from being in the military for several years...so I'm sure it's a mixture of both...Oh well!!! I cant dwell on it forever. I'm still sad and I do love him, but everything happens fora reason so right now I need to take "Fearfully Hopeful's" advice and focus on me getting happy and healthy. If my test results come back negative, I'll be so happy I probably wont even remember his name and go find me a new man...lol!!!
I'm diggin "Fearfully Hopeful's" idea of a celebratory PROTECTED F*%$ if everything turns out well...lol!!! Dont get me wrong, I can go without it and I have since this, but it would be nice to know we are back to our old selves and can enjoy sex without worrying about the burden of infecting others.
I really just noticed that by the time I will be able to test for the virus, it will almost be my 24th birthday...that would be the best birthday ever!!!
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