So I just took my first dose of step 2. It smelled like chlorine, just like "Fearfully Hopeful" mentioned in her blog. I didn't really taste much but the dose is extremely low...it's only 2 drops of x and 1ml of y. I got organic pomogranite juice to mix it with since that's one of the juices they suggested. It's way better than organic natural cranberry juice because that stuff is hella bitter!!!! It said to take immediately after meals but since I had a terrible incident on saturday, I have hardly been able to eat anything since. I ate most of an apple and then took it and I do feel a little nauseated but I been feelin like that the last few days anyway. Hopefully the side effects listed for this step wont hit me too hard. I was lucky with most of the side effects listed in step 1 except for the pimples.
I've been super depressed since saturday!!! My heart is so so broken!!! I guess it's better in the long run anyway incase Resolve doesnt work. The guy I was seeing text me on saturday like 20 minutes before I was supposed to meet him for plans we had, and basically said it was over...WTF? Just like that after about five or six months with no explanation!!! I was and still am devistated because everything was fine between us a few hours before that. I guess everything happens for a reason though because if Resolve ends up not working, I would have had to make the decision to break up with him without giving him the real reason or telling him and risking his rejection. His reaction probably would have been the same as the text he sent me...lol!!! So better now right? :(
Sorry for babbling about my personal life but I figure this blog is a form of therapy for my HSV2 issues so I figure maybe letting it out here will help me get through my day a littl better. I must admit, I had been avoiding drinking as much as I could but I broke down last night and drank a lot before I went to bed to help ease the pain of my broken heart and my stress about the detox. It helped me sleep, but I still feel like shit today so I guess it wasnt really worth it...so much for day of rest huh? I'm going to stay commited to not drinking at ALL through step 2 though. It's only two weeks, I can do it...right? Well wish me luck with that!!!
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I totally don't think sharing your feelings here is a problem...I was living an absolutely worryfree life until April of this year...when this hit me.I'm really just a down these days :( Following yours and others' blogs lifts my spirits like you wouldn't know :)
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear that...I had a day kind of like that...I blogged about it....I don't remember which day it was, but the guy I was seeing told me he wasn't the relationship type and that he only wanted sex..well obviously I wasn't putting out, cuz he flat out said STD's were a deal breaker....but I enjoyed his company and wanted to see what would happen. I was already doing this detox obviously so I had hope that I would be cured and not have to worry about it. Him and I are still friends but if I told him I would sleep with him I'm sure he'd be thrilled...I'm not down for friends with benefits, but if I'm cured, part of me just wants to celebrate with a really good f***! lol....I'm only half serious about that....but on your behalf, any guy who just leaves you hanging isn't worth the energy. I was totally stressing about telling this guy I had HSV and HPV..and he actually ended it the day I was going to tell him, I was SOOOOO relieved...cuz we are now still friends without the pressure of sex...we still fooled around some, but he said he was glad we didn't have sex cuz of the whole pregnancy issue, which I was worried about pregnancy before and ended up here. At least if I had a baby I would love it...I do not love HSV and HPV....keep your chin up. focus on you and getting healthy, that's what drives me...cuz soon enough I'll have a happy healthy person to offer some one again... but right now, I'm just not where I need to be
ReplyDeletethanks for the support on my blog- i felt the same WTF as you mentioned at the responses but oh well its in the past. I'll eventually have negative results to rub in her face :)
ReplyDeleteI never took resolve but I had my fair share of MMS which is similiar to one of the resolve steps. 2drops is not that bad now- but it will get worse. get ready to breathe out of your mouth because once your brain associates that chlorine smell with the mix it will play mind games on you. also be careful which juice you use- most juice has vit c in it, I know cranberry does- so try to stick with the juices that dont have any or dont have much. I typically had to go to the health food store for this.
sorry to post a novel here but I dont know your hub id yet so i wanted to leave it here.