Waiting Period Day 3

I calculated it out last night and my first testable day is September 25th. That seems sooooo far away :-(

I slept for like twelve hours from yesterday evening to this morning. I feel pretty good this morning. The sensitivity I was feeling yesterday seems to be gone with no signs of an outbreak as of right now. I did have some more severe (than the normal tingling I've been having throughout Resolve) tingling this morning but there's not too much going on right now. I'll wait a few weeks and if there are no symptoms left including the tingles, I wont do the booster, but if the tingles are still present and any other symptoms occur, I'm gonna order the booster with the quickness!!!

Waiting Period Day 2

My energy level seems like it is adjusting back to normal from the fatigue I was having with step 2. I'm still hella tired because I was out in S.F. all afternoon and evening yesterday and then got up at 4:30 a.m. this morning to do my workout before work. This morning was the first time since step 2 that I was able to do all of my routine without feeling like I was gonna pass out after...it felt great!!!

I am having a little sensitivity in the down south area, I cant quite tell yet if I am just being paranoid or if it is an outbreak coming on. I havent really had any tingling to signal one, so I'll just have to wait it out and see. If it is an outbreak, I should know by tomorrow or soon after.

Wating Period Day 1

So today is my first day not having to do the detox, and man that is a great feeling!!! In the last few days, it seems like my tingles have gotten milder and milder. Hopefully they will just stop coming soon :-) I havent had an outbreak since the 2nd or 3rd week on step 1 and before that, I hadn't had an outbreak since like December 2008. Even though Love's results were discouraging, I still feel pretty optomistic about the whole thing...what else can I do right? No use in stressing out over it for the next 90 days.

Now that I'm off the detox, I plan on working out even harder since I should have more energy and I can eat mostly fruits and veggies now that I dont have to eat more substance for those drops. I'm gonna try to be as healthy as my self control will allow me to be in the next 90 days :-) and hopefully even after.

Step 2; Extension Day 4---MY FINAL DOSE!!!

I just took my final dose!!! I am finally done with taking Resolve (unless I end up needing to take the booster). Now I just wait, and hopefully everything will turn out okay.

Love said she ordered the booster to see how that goes, but she says her getting reinfected is impossible because she has not been with anyone in any way. That is a little discouraging but all we can do is hope the booster works for her for good this time and that Resolve will work for all of us taking it too.

I know anything is possible in this world of ours, but I just can't grasp the idea that they found a way to get the antibodies out of our system temporarily...Because like chicken pox, once you have the antibodies, even if it never comes back again, you still have the virus and it's antibodies in your blood (from what I understand). I even asked a few people if they thought it was possible for Resolve to work that way and they all thought/think Resolve is a scam but all said they didnt think that testing negative for antibodies when it's still in your system is possible. None of them were doctors or anything, but thats what I would think too. Who knows, I cant drive myself crazy with this for the next 90 days, so I am going to try and remain as optomistic as possible.

Step 2; Extention Day 4

IT'S MY LAST DAY!!!! It felt like it would never come :-) I havent really experienced much tingling the last couple days either...if any it was super mild and not that frequent. Still having some bowel issues but it's nothing I cant handle...lol!!!

I woke up this morning and told myself that it is a new day. I started getting depressed again earlier this week, but I told myself this morning that wasnt gonna do that again (atleast right now)...It's summertime and I had/have certain goals I want to achieve by the time the next semester starts in August. I want to enjoy my summer with my friends and family and finish my personal goals that I decided I was going to do for myself to improve my happiness and quality of life. Since being on Resolve (especially in the last month), I have become sort of secrative and anti-social with my friends and family and that's not me. Of course I'm not going to tell them about Resolve, but I am going to start spending the time with them that I used to.

To improve my mood today and get myself on track, I am going to start with a nice breakfast and the drops, of course...lol!!! Then I'm gonna go work out and tan (I love tanning; it's a very relaxing 15 minutes and I havent done it since last saturday). After that, I'm gonna come home and clean up my room and put my laundry in. Than I am going to have a BBQ with some of my closest friends that I haven't spent very much time with lately. Tomorrow, I have pllans to attend the Gay Pride Parade in San Francisco with my best friend but I haven't heard back from him on that yet so it may not work out. If we dont end up doing that, I'll do pretty much the same routine as today, only accept for the drops (since I'll be finished :-)) and the BBQ, I'll read a book.

Step 2; Extension Day 3 PART 2

Maaaaannnnnn!!!! I.D.K. if it's the fruits and veggies or the resolve, but I'm having a lot of gas and not normal stool...It's not the "mud butt", but not far from it :-( I think the rash I'm experiencing is some sort of fungus because the original spots are dried up, but there is a new cluster that itches hella bad and some individual dots spread out over my fore-arm. I'ma make an appointment to go in and get something for it. I put some tinactin on it earlier to see if it would help, and it may have, but I'm still itchin though. I can resisit scratchin it while I'm awake, but it's not as easy while I'm sleeping. I'm tired as always, but I'm all ready for bed so it's curtains as soon as I sign off of here!!!

Step 2; Extension Day 3

I ate a good amount of dried fruit this morning compared to what I ate yesterday because of how sick I got. I havent thrown up yet, but my stomach started to burn about 10 min. after the dose. I'm trying to eat some carrots to help and drink water and it seems to be working. The burning is beggining to go away, so hopefully I'll keep this dose down. I think I will just have to wait until sunday when I'm done to eat just fruits and veggies because my stomach is notcoping well with these last few days of the extension. I obviously need to eat more substance before these bigger doses.

I only had about 3ml of activator left this morning so I had to mix it with lemon juice to make 5ml. So my FINAL 3 DOSES :-) will be with the lemon juice. I CANT WAIT TILL TOMORROW IS OVER!!! It will be great to not have to take this anymore. I have more of that rash thing on my arm...I was thinking of going to the Dr to get it looked at incase it's a fungus or something, but I'm too afraid that it may come up that I'll have to admit I was taking Resolve and that this may be whats causing the "rash".

I was thinking about ordering the booster ahead of time just incase I'll need it so I wont have to wait for it to come when/ if the time comes to take it. Does anyone know if the booster is free and we just pay shipping, or is there a charge for it and if so, how much?

HAPPY FRIDAY ALL :-)

TODAY'S DOSE WAS A MESS!!!!

So, about 1/2 hour after I took my morning dose, I began to get hella nauseated. I tried my hardest not to let it come up, but my body was not havin it!!! I threw up everything I had in me (at least it felt that way). Even after I was done vomiting, I was real light headed and shakey and I had these terrible stomach cramps. It was so bad, I had to leave work and go home to get in the bed. I also had some wierd gas and stool withiin a couple hours later. After I got some rest and recovered from how awful I was feeling, I emailed Resolve to see if I should re-take the dose and they told me to forget that dose and move on.

It was wierd because I didnt eat much less than what I normally have been eating with my morning doses but maybe the 18 drops was my limit. After I felt better this afternoon and had a bigger meal, I took the regularly scheduled afternoon dose and everything seems to be fine. Other than the usual symptoms, and the awful mishaps this morning, nothing has changed but my confidence in this product.

I actually didnt start getting nauseated until after I read that Love tested positive again....maybe the stress that hit me from that helped make me sick this morning. I dont want to be negative here, but maybe the company did find a way to make H antibody levels undetectible for a while, but then they go back up after a cetrtain period of time. Oh well, I'm still gonna continue to finish what I started here...I knew this was a gamble before I even went through with it. As sad as I will be if it doesnt work, I had a life before Resolve and I will still have one after Resolve, whatever my results are. Hopefully everything will work out fine, but for now, all I can do is stay focused on what I'm doing now and try not to get distracted by this. My heart goes out to Love and I hope it was a false positive and that the 10 day detox will take care of everything. Stay happy everyone!!!!

Step 2; Extension Day 2

Goodmorning. Nothing new to report. Same symptoms as always with this step. I measured out my remaining activator last night and it's a little over 10ml which means it will only last through today so I'll have to get the lemon juice for the last 2 days of the extension (tomorrow and saturday).

I havent actually visited Love's blog in a few days, but someone else's blog said in her last HSV test she took it showed she was positive for HSV1 again after testing negative on two tests a few months back. Hmmmmmmm.....this is discouraging. Do you think it's possible that this stuff only works temporarily somehow to fool the tests and comes back later? Thats hella wierd. It's possible she could have gotten re-infected but from what her blog entries say, she hasnt been dating even after she tested negative. Makes me wonder....

Step 2; Extension Day 1

Goodmorning all!!! Today is my first day of the extension which is 17 drops and 5ml. The 3-dot situation on my arm had kinda turned into a little rash, and it's still lingering. I had a little bit of tingling last night and I'm tired as always, but other than those same 3 symptoms, nothing else is really going on.

I was talking to my sister last night and she is a health nut so I decided that I was gonna try her suggestion of a raw food diet for a while. I know Resolve says you dont have to change your diet for the detox, but I figure since I did do some drinking and smoking and haad a little caffine here and there, that it couldnt hurt to be as healthy as possible while my body is "clearing" in the 90 day waiting period. I dont know if I will be able to follow through with it for the full 90 days but I'll do my best....lol!!! I eat a lot of fruits and veggies anyways and I'm not a big meat eater, but I think the bread and dairy part is gonna be the hardest for me. I told myself I was starting today so wish me luck :-)

Day 15; Step 2

IT'S MY LAST DAY!!! I'm so happy I get to say that :-) I am going to do the extension because I still have that funky rash dot thing and I had some minor tingling last night but I'm still happy that regular step 2 is over. I feel pretty good today...it's only tuesday and I'm already exausted but my spirits are high at the moment.

Step 2; Day 14

Good morning everyone!!! Sorry for not posting yesterday, I was in a situation where I couldnt get online. I had my drops with me but not the dose sheet...It was supposed to be 12 drops again yesterday but I did 14 to be safe and today is 14 too. Tomorrow, I believe is 16 and then the extension. For those of you who havent been reading this for too long, the reason I'm doing 15 days instead of 14 is because I didnt increase my dose the 3rd day by accident, but Resolve told me to continue on as directed so I have an extra day. I dont think I'll have enough activator for the whole extension so I think I'll have to buy the lemon juice.

No really any new symptoms to report; Just the same mild tingling, fatigue, and wierd dots on my arm. I dont think they're getting bigger, but they do still itch a little. My stomach has been a little upset, but I'm not sure if it's the Resolve or what I've been eating. I didnt have my juice yesterday or this morning, so I had to mix with water and it was terrible, but not unbearable.

Step 2; Day 12 PART TWO

So I took my second dose for the day and I noticed that I am begining to get a little light headed and warm after I take the doses. I'm hoping it will pass, but I doubt it. It will probably just keep getting worse until I'm done with it all. Not much tingling today, just the little bit I had this morning. Tired as usual...lol!!! I feel like I'm basically repeating my self in all these entries since step 2 :-) But that's how I'm feelin so I put it on here.

Step 2; day 12

Today's dose was pretty intense!!! The fatigue hit me pretty soon after I took it. I'm still gonna try and stick to my program though. If I work out earlier in the day when I THINK I have more energy, it's easier to stick to. It's hard sometimes to get a work out in early during the week though because of my work schedule. Oh well, all I can do is try though I guess :-)

I had some minor tingling last night and this morning. Those three wired bumps on my arm were itching in the middle of the night...I ended up scratching them and now they look a little bigger and more red.

I'm pretty sure I will end up doing the extension. I dont think the bottle of Y will last that long though. It's already 1/2 way gone and the rest of the doses from now through the extension require 5ml per dose. I may end up having to get lemon juice in the extension. If we arent supposed to have Vitamin C though, why do they say use lemon juice? Is there no vitamin C in lemon juice? And how does lemon juice act the same as bottle Y? If that was the case then how come we couldnt just use lemon juice the chole time? Resolve confuses me sometimes, but let's not get PARANOID!!! I'm tryina stay positve here, so I'm going to get off that...I was just wondering though.

Step 2; Day 11 PART TWO

Not a whole lot going on this evening...I had some minor tingling this evening but nothing big. It looks like instead of 2 dots on my arm, now there's 3. I have been having some pretty intense dreams lately...Fearfully Hopeful mentioned this also on step 2 so I guess that must be another symptom. Like I mentioned lately, I been eating a lot more the last couple days but I think it's just because I have been less depressed and I have been working out a lot more.

I took a nap today but I'm still hella tired so I'm in for the night, headed for bed as soon as I finish typing this. I cant wait to be done with this; I can see the "light at the end of the tunnel"...lol!!! I have 4 days left on the regular step 2 and I think if I am still having tingling (which I probably will) when I'm done with those 4 days, I'll do the extension just to better my chances. Well, I hope you are all doing well tonight!!! HAPPY FRIDAY :-)

Step 2; Day 11

Goodmorning everyone!!! Today is my last day on 10 drops and then I go to 12 drops for the next two days. I had a little tingling yesterday and some slight tingling this morning. I'm tired, as always, but I didnt go to bed till around 3a.m. and I had to be up at 7a.m. so that's not surprising.

NEW SYMPTOM: This actually appeared two or three days ago, but I didnt think to report on it until today. It started out as two tiny tiny dots on my left fore-arm. They almost looked like needle-tip sized pimples. I wasnt paying attention yesterday and scratched it by mistake so now it looks like there may be a couple more, or they have gotten irritated or something, but it's still a super tiny area. Hope it doesnt keep growing!!!

Step 2; Day 10

I woke up feeling great this morning :-) The sun was shining and I felt well rested. I took my morning dose; I'm up to 10 drops and 5 ml for today and tomorrow...bbbblllleeeeeehhhhh!!! I held my nose, drank it down quick, and chased it with HELLA water but I could still taste it on my tongue after :-(

No symptoms to report so far today. I think my skin is now actually more clear than it was before I even started Resolve.....maybe it really does clean you all the way out...Let's hope so :-)

Step 2; Day 9 PART TWO

Bleh!!! I just took my second dose for the day and I literally gagged and almost threw it right back up!!! This is awful stuff...and my goofy butt lost the paper with the dosages for step 2 so I had to email resolve and ask them to send me what doses I need to take for the rest of my detox. I havent checked my email yet but I hope they send me that by tonight so I can be ready for the morning.

Nothing new to report as far as symptoms; Dry eyes, hella tired, and a little bit of tingling earlier today. I think I'm gonna take a nap and then work out if I dont get up too late...that's the beauty of 24hr fitness; I can go anytime I feel like it :-) I worked my fanny off yesterday!!! My abs are pretty sore today so I think I'm just gonna do an hour of cardio and maybe some leg and arm weights tonight. I'M HELLA HUNGRY...OH MA GOODNESS!!! Yeah, I definetly think it was the depression killing my apetite and not resolve cuz now that I'm feeling better emotionally, I really feel like I could tear some shit up...lol!!! I ate a 1/2 a sandwich before I took my second dose, but that aint cuttin it :-)

Step2 ; Day 9

I'm getting ready to take my first dose for the day. I dont know how this is going to effect me because I'm going off of 3 hrs of sleep today and I have a long ass day ahead of me :-( I'm dreading how tired I'm gonna be but I'll just have to tough it out. I still have some tingling and as always since begging step 2, I'm exausted but nothing else really to report symptom wise.

I went out last night with a guy I knew back in high school. We ran into eachother last summer and exchanged numbers as a friend thing. I didnt see or hear from him after that until recently. He saw me out and about last month and text me. I wasnt sure if he was doing it as a friend thing or a dating thing so I didnt entertain it much because I was involved with someone. I ran into him yesterday and figured "what the hell" so I met him later in the evening and we talked for a few hours. It was all going fine, it seemed like strictly a friend thing until he began asking me "what I was looking for" with him. I told him I thought he was attractive but I wasnt looking for anything inparticular right now. He told me he wasnt looking for a girlfriend but we could kick it and if something happened then it was whatever. When he said that, I'm thinking he meant if we hung out more and started to grow on eachother then we could take it from there, but aparently he meant right then and there. Less than five minutes after that he was tryina kiss on me and push up on me like he was ready to fuck!!! I bet if I told him I had herpes he would have stepped the hell off...lol!!! Yeah, so I was like "F this" and went home. Some guys are such A-holes!!! So that's the end of that "friendship".

Step 2; Day 8

I took my 8 drops and 3ml and it didnt taste as bad as I thought it would, I guess I'm getting used to it now. I slept a lot yesterday; I took a two hour nap and went back to sleep a few hours later, sleeping another 9.5hrs through the night. This stuff is really kickin my butt!!! I did have some tingling last night...So much for the feeling of it being out of my body!!! Hopefully these are just the "clearing symptoms" Resolve talks about. I was reading another blog and someone suggested that the tingling could be nerve damage too. Who knows :-) Well, all in all, my spirits are still high and I am still feeling pretty confident that this may work for me.

I've had so much going on and been so tired lately that I havent been to the gym in about two weeks....AAAHHHH!!! I'm starting back today though. I'm meeting a friend there in about an hour. I'm feeling pretty tired now, but since I just got up not that long ago, I think I can pump out an hour or two at the gym and then come home and take a nap before work if I need to...lol!!!

Other than being tired, dry eyes, and tingling, I'm not really having any other symmptoms. My skin is staying the clearest it's been since I started Resolve and I have a little stomach discomfort at times throughout the day, but it seems that the constipation has subsided.

Step 2; Day 7---PART TWO

So I just finished my last dose for the day. Once I swallow the solution, my stomach gets a weird feeling for a sec...but it goes away pretty quickly. My eye balls are still hella dry and I feel like I cant get enough sleep. My little cousin was getting on my case this weekend for how many naps I was taking when I was babysitting/hanging out with them...lol!!! I cant help it, this stuff makes me exausted. Infact, when I'm done writing this, I'm gonna catch a quick nap before I go out to run some errands. I think I felt some mild tingles after this dose, but if it was tingles and not my mind playing tricks on me, they were very light...almost unnoticable.

Tomorrow I go up to 8 drops and 3ml for the next two days...the end is coming near!!! I cant wait for this to be done :) My last day on this step will be Tuesday the 23rd, unless I am still experiencing symptoms, then I will have to do the extra 4 days. I spent an extra day on this step because I accidently repeateted the dosage for days 1 and 2 on day 3, but Resolve said I could continue on as directed, so instead of 14 days, I'm doing 15. Hopefully I wont have any symptoms and will be through with this stuff!!! Well, I'm bout to take my nap, so have a great afternoon :-)

Step 2; Day 7

Good morning all!!! MAN THIS ISH IS NASTY :-( I'm halfway done with this step!!! Hopefully I wont have to do any extensions of this...I cant say it enough how gross this is...and it makes my stomach turn while I'm drinking it even though I hold my nose to help mask the taste.

Still not feeling much of anything going on down there. I've been obsessing about it since last night, thinking about it so much waiting for a sensation to shoot through in that area, but nothing is really happening. Hopefully it will stay that way...I've been wondering what it would feel like to be HSV 2 free. I really felt like it wasnt in me anymore yesterday!!! I know there is a chance that it could start back up anytime between now and in my 90 day waiting period as "clearing symptoms" but I am much more optomistic that this will work now than before....hopefully it will :-)

I felt so good yesterday that i began thinking of changes I was going to make in my life, starting today, that would help keep me feeling that good on a regular basis. Even if this detox doesnt work for me, I still want to have a better quality of life. After all, weather it works or not, I still have to live so I may as well do it in the best way possible right? BUT I'M GONNA STAY POSITIVE AND SAY IT WILL WORK!!! I know I probably sound crazy...lol!!! Like I had an epiphany or something, but I'm tired of being unhappy and the way I felt yesterday is a feeling that I want to have more often.

Step 2; Day 6

Hello All!!! I took both my doses for today and good god...even with juice, 6 drops and 3 ml of solution is awful!!! I'm not looking forward to uping the doses at all as far as flavor :-( On the bright side, I can honestly say, I have not had any tingling all day!!! I dont wanna jump the gun, but this is the first day in a long time that my body has not felt the presence of the HSV2 virus. This makes me very happy and very hopeful...I know it's way too early to jump to any assumptions here, but the way I feel today makes me think that this really may work!!! That would be fantastic!!!

If this really worked, I wouldnt completely out myself for had having HSV, but a few people close to me do know, and I know two people who are infected. I would be more than happy to recommend this to them if it ends up working. My mom, my BFF, and an old high school teacher of mine who has become a great friend know of me being infected. The only person in my life, besides you all of course, who knows I am trying Resolve is my BFF. I didnt want to hear the negativity of "dont be fooled" by my teacher and mom and didnt want to get anyone else's hopes up if this didnt work. My BFF has been super supportive of me since day one of my infection and she was very supportive of the idea of me trying resolve. I'm feeling quite optomistic today though and I hope that this lasts. Until tomorrow all...Have a great evening :-)

Step 2; Day 5

This is my last day at 4 drops and 1 ml. Tomorrow the dose goes up to 6 drops and 3ml for the next two days. I am not looking forward to the taste......bleh!!! Other than that things are going well. Some mild tingling here and there and still a little constipated, but the skin is still looking good and besides being tired, my overall health feels ok.

I'm happy to say I am feeling much less depressed today. I was feeling somewhat better yesterday, but today is an even bigger improvement. Hopefully this will last...being depressed hella sucks and makes everything else in life harder to deal with :-( I ate a little more last night and today than I have been eating for like the last week...maybe it was the depression killing my apetite and not step 2. I still feel like I have to force food down even when I'm hungry but I can get more down and I feel better after I have eaten. It's still not much though. I'm losin weight so it's not all bad right?...lol!!!

Dry Eyeballs...

So I took my afternoon dosage not too long ago. Another symptom I am begining to notice is dry eyes. Not sure if it's an allergy thing or a symptom, but my eyes were not feeling like this last week and it seems like they have been getting dryer and dryer. It's not unbearable...just a little uncomfortable. I better get some eye drops or something. I also had some very realistic dreams last night and this morning. "Fearfully Hopeful" mentioned the same thing with her on step 2. I hope that doesnt last long...I hate to wake up in the morning and still be effected by my dreams, it's just wierd.

I remembered my juice this afternoon...HURRAY!!! I gotta tell you, the pomogranite juice does wonders for blocking out the awful taste. I know I'm only on 4 drops right now, and the flavor will probably get stronger, but I'm satisifed for now :-) I still feel like I have to poop but I havent been able to go yet today...lol!!! Thats so wierd to me sharing that with you guys, but I talk like that with my friends and family anyways and I guess because we all share something so personal on here, it's not a big deal :-) "Fearfully Hopeful" mentioned kind of the opposite symptoms. Seatortuga mentioned sleeplessness and she is on step 1...I too had trouble sleeping pretty much the whole first half of step 1. I sometimes had trouble sleeping prior to resolve anyways because of mild ensomnia but I could tell that step 1 definetly had something to do with it.

Step2; Day 4

Okay, so I officially have issues...lol!!! I just figured out right now that instead of upping my dose yesterday like I was supposed to, I took the same dose a s the first two days. So I'm on day 4 of step 2 but my dosage is only at what it should have been on day 3. Not a big deal I suppose...I'll email resolve anyways to see what they say, but I'm pretty sure they will just tell me to continue on as directed. I forgot my juice again this morning so I had to mix it with water and I cant stress enough how gross this stuff is...it leaves an awful taste on my tongue.

I still have some tingling but my face is still pretty clear compared to what it was on step 1. I think this stuff may be making me a little constipated too...TMI, I know but the whole point of this blog is to keep it real so I'm definetly having some bowel issues. I have some gas pains and I feel like I have to go number 2, but it's not happening. My apetite isnt what it normally is either. At first I though it was because of the depression, but now I think this may have something to do with it. It says take immediately after food, so I try to eat something while I'm waiting the 3 minutes but I have to force whatever it is down and I havent eaten anything besides what I do right before the 2 doses...wierd huh? I dont usually eat a lot at one time but I normally eat small stuff frequently throughout the day like a yogurt here and some fruit there....Oh well, I guess I'll get used to it. It makes everything so much more uncomfortable throughout the day when your movements arent normal though.

Step 2; Day 3

I just took my afternoon dose of drops. I got kind of light headed and a little bit of a headache shortly after I took it but that only lasted for a little while. I'm pretty tired, I dont know if this is because of my state of mind lately or a side effect of step 2; probably a little bit of both. I went to bed around midnight last night and got up at 7:30 this morning for work. I got off my first job around ten this morning and came home and slept all afternoon until my evening job. I totally feel like I could go to bed right now, but I'm going to try and hang for a few hours to get stuff done.

I have some tingling but not much, I really hope this stuff is working. My skin has cleared up HELLA much...HURRAY :-) I'm back to being a young sexy thang...lol!!! No, but really, the last few pimples I had while on step 1 are almost all clear and I havent developed any major new ones. The texture of my skin is better too. I use rubbing alcohol atleast twice per day on my face and I changed my face wash to a regular face scrub instead of boot-leg proactiv because it became un-affective about half way through step 1. I been drinking hella water too...even more than they reccomend usually. I'm still not eating much, I try to eat as much as I can before I take the drops because they say to take them immediately after food. I lost my measuring cup thingy that came with the detox and had to go to the drugstore to get something that would measure out liquid in ml's. When I took the morning dose today, I just guessed when it came to measuring out the 1ml of solution...ooops!!! I hope I wasnt too off, I just really didnt want to miss a dose because they are very specific in the instructions for step 2 to take it EXACTLY how they tell you. They even said only use the measurer provided, but I emailed them this morning and told them I couldnt find mine and they said it would be okay to get another one from the drugstore.

Fighter posted her Western Blot results today if anyone is interested in looking at them. Wow, this post has turned into a novel...lol!!! Well, thanks for listening guys...I love knowing that I have you all in my support network...I seriously dont think I could do this without you guys!!!
HAVE A GREAT NIGHT GUYS :-)

Step 2 ; Day 2 Entry Number Two

So I've taken all my drops for today... The only side effects I notice so far are fatigue and nausea. My stomach hurts no matter how much I eat before I take the dosage and I seem to be very tired, more than usual, the last couple days since I started step 2. Hope all goes well...I'll keep you all posted :-)

Step2; Day 2

Goodmorning all!!! I havent taken my morning drops yet because I spent the night out and forgot to bring the paper with the dosages. I'm pretty sure I remembered how many drops and how much solution but I didnt wanna take a chance and do it wrong, plus I forgot my juice. Ugg..speaking of, I spent the night with my auntie last night because I was hella stressin over dude still and I didnt bring my juice to take the drops so I mixed it with water cuz I didnt want to risk drinking anything she had with added vitamin C, and THAT IS SOME POWERFUL STUFF!!! The chlorine smell is awful and the taste wasnt great either...as the drops increase it will only get worse I know.

Also, the dircetions mention not to get it on your skin or clothes and like a dumb ass, when I was takin it down like a shot, I spilled some of it on my face!!! I wiped it off but I was worried about how it would effect my detox since some was spilled, and WHAT THE HELL MIGHT HAPPEN TO MY FACE!!! I dont want the Michael Jackson Syndrome...what's that called? Vilalago or something...lol!!! I'm having second thoughts about how safe this is...I dont think we should be ingesting anything that smells like that, but hell, at this point I would drink clorox if it got rid of herpes and didnt kill me!!!

Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement and support yesterday!!! It really helped lift my spirits when I read your comments this morning. I actually saw him yesterday to get my stuff from his house and he gave me a little closure, but I know he isn't giving me the full story. He says it's nothing to do with me, and I know someone said something about me he didnt like but rather thn asking me about it, he just cut me off like I was nothing to him. He has issues anyway...lots of emotional baggage from a recent divorce and things that he is still dealing with from being in the military for several years...so I'm sure it's a mixture of both...Oh well!!! I cant dwell on it forever. I'm still sad and I do love him, but everything happens fora reason so right now I need to take "Fearfully Hopeful's" advice and focus on me getting happy and healthy. If my test results come back negative, I'll be so happy I probably wont even remember his name and go find me a new man...lol!!!

I'm diggin "Fearfully Hopeful's" idea of a celebratory PROTECTED F*%$ if everything turns out well...lol!!! Dont get me wrong, I can go without it and I have since this, but it would be nice to know we are back to our old selves and can enjoy sex without worrying about the burden of infecting others.

I really just noticed that by the time I will be able to test for the virus, it will almost be my 24th birthday...that would be the best birthday ever!!!

Step 2; Day 1

So I just took my first dose of step 2. It smelled like chlorine, just like "Fearfully Hopeful" mentioned in her blog. I didn't really taste much but the dose is extremely low...it's only 2 drops of x and 1ml of y. I got organic pomogranite juice to mix it with since that's one of the juices they suggested. It's way better than organic natural cranberry juice because that stuff is hella bitter!!!! It said to take immediately after meals but since I had a terrible incident on saturday, I have hardly been able to eat anything since. I ate most of an apple and then took it and I do feel a little nauseated but I been feelin like that the last few days anyway. Hopefully the side effects listed for this step wont hit me too hard. I was lucky with most of the side effects listed in step 1 except for the pimples.

I've been super depressed since saturday!!! My heart is so so broken!!! I guess it's better in the long run anyway incase Resolve doesnt work. The guy I was seeing text me on saturday like 20 minutes before I was supposed to meet him for plans we had, and basically said it was over...WTF? Just like that after about five or six months with no explanation!!! I was and still am devistated because everything was fine between us a few hours before that. I guess everything happens for a reason though because if Resolve ends up not working, I would have had to make the decision to break up with him without giving him the real reason or telling him and risking his rejection. His reaction probably would have been the same as the text he sent me...lol!!! So better now right? :(

Sorry for babbling about my personal life but I figure this blog is a form of therapy for my HSV2 issues so I figure maybe letting it out here will help me get through my day a littl better. I must admit, I had been avoiding drinking as much as I could but I broke down last night and drank a lot before I went to bed to help ease the pain of my broken heart and my stress about the detox. It helped me sleep, but I still feel like shit today so I guess it wasnt really worth it...so much for day of rest huh? I'm going to stay commited to not drinking at ALL through step 2 though. It's only two weeks, I can do it...right? Well wish me luck with that!!!

Wierd Pimples

I'm getting a little concerned about some of the pimples I have been getting lately. It seems like some of them have very little to no white stuff but have hella fluid in them like a blister. And when I put pressure on them and then take it off, there is a large imprint left of the area that is filled with nothing but fluid and I can never squeeze all of it out. I know this is nasty and I dont know if I am describing this very well but I had 2 like that on my face and one on my collar bone. I've had mild acne since high school but I've never had a pimple like that before. I only started getting those like a week and a half ago...Hopefully now that step 1 is done, the pimples will get better with step 2.

Day of Rest

Nothing new to report for today. Had some tinling last night...I notice that after taking C is when most of the tingling occurs. Today I will take it pretty easy..atleast I hope to. Spet 2 begins tomorrow. I'm looking forward to getting this all over with.

Step1; Day 41-MY LAST DAY ON STEP 1 :-)

So I emailed Resolve yesterday about my question on the doses I had left. They advised me to take A, B, and C today and then stop taking step 1. So tomorrow will be my day of rest and then I will begin step 2 on Tuesday, hurray :-)

Step 1; Day 40

Nothing new to report. I still feel tingling and I still have the pimples. Is it just me or do pimples while on the detox hurt much more than pimples pre-Resolve? My stomach has been sort of upset the last few days but I'm not sure if it's the resolve, or my diet; I've been eating more yogurt, fruit, and cottage cheese than normal lately...I think :-)It may just be those things giving me the B.G.'s.

Fighter posted on her blog today...she is still negative according to her post. She hasnt picked up her western blot test results yet, but she says she will post them when she does. I guess reading that raised my spirits a little...Love posted saying she accidently changed her settings and thats why we couldn't see her blog. Hopefully I'm just being paranoid but I hope that Love and Fighter are really two seperate people who really took resolve and really got the results the claim, because it seems to me like they often post on the same days and are away from their blogs around the same days...I shouldnt dwell on that. I need to stay positive and beleive that this will work!!!

I WILL BE HERPES FREE!!!!

Step 1; Day 39 Part 3

I'm hella sleepy!!! Just took dose C for the night...not much to report but some serious tingling going on in the VJ area!!! My herpes is definetly letting me know it's still there...

I read an entry today from Techie that she posted a couple days ago...It looks like she basically tested positive for HSV on her western blot, but she said she tested early. Hopefully thats the reason why . . . She didnt seem too discouraged by it and she said she was going to re-test. I'll keep following her progress and keep yall updated.

Well, I have a big day tomorrow so I'm goanna go to bed. Tomorrow is "Fearfully Hopeful's" birthday!!!! Happy birthday gurl....hope your day goes exactly how you planned it...HOLLA :-)

Step1; Day 39 Part 2

So I finished taking B and decided I was gonna measure that too to see how much was left. There was more than 2 doses and I ended up spilling some trying to get it back in the bottle...yikes!!! To keep it real, I think I spilled some of A too when I was doing the same thing this morning...I dont think it really matters though; I have taken all the doses that were required for the detox and now I'm just finishing off the bottles for that lil extra push!!!

One symptom I have been having for the last week or so, but keep forgetting to mention is sore/tingling gums when I brush my teeth...I know, it sounds like I dont take care of my mouth and have gingivitis or something BUT THAT'S NOT TRUE, I SWEAR!!!...Lol!!! I'm a huge stickler about my teeth so I have always been a regular brusher and flosser and I always go to my routine dental appointments. I think the potency of the minerals is irritating my mouth a little, but it's not unbearable, like I said there's just a little sensitivty when brushing.

A few weeks ago I noticed that my bottles were getting a stronger smell, which is weird. They all smell and taste more like ammonia than when I first started them. I asked resolve about it and they asked have they been exposed to direct sunlight. I told them no, which is true as far as I know. If I take them with me because I know I am going to be away from home for a long time/ over night I keep them in a backpack or overnight bag on the floor of my car or in the trunk, so they wont be ruined by the sun. Even still, Resolve said that they should be fine and to continue taking them as directed. I also notice that where the liquids have drippled down the side of the bottle, the label has turned black...BLEH...I wonder what it makes my insides look like :-( Oh well!!! This is how desperate I am to get rid of my herpes...I'LL JUST ABOUT DO ANYTHING!

Step 1; Day 39

Goodmorning!!! So apparently I was wrong on how much I had left of step 1 in the bottles. I thought I should be finished with A and B by today, but after taking dose A today, I measured out the remaining liquid in the bottle and it was a little over 40ml, which is pretty much exactly 2 more doses. B has the same amount of liquid left and C has a little bit more. So I guess I will be taking all three steps until Sunday. I think C may have more than 1 or 2 doses left in it by monday so I am wondering if I should take up to 3 doses of C on monday (if there is that much or more left by then) since I will be done with A and B or if I should just take it once a day until it's gone. That's something I should probably email resolve about...lol!!! I dont wanna poison myself :) but I just wanna get this step over with!!! It seems like for the last few days I have been waking up thinking "this is probably the last day for this step" and then it's not...I just wanna move on to step 2 so I can be that much closer to being able to take the blood tests!!! Oh well, I guess I have no choice but to wait and be patient :-) Have a good day everyone!!!

Has anyone ever heard of this?

I know, I know...I should totally be sleeping right now instead of googling "herpes" but I saw this product's website around the same time I was looking into ordering resolve;

http://www.herpes-device-that-works.com/genital-herpes.html

I'd be interested in knowing if anyone has ever heard of this product or knows of anyone who has used it? The method sounds a little off, but I read a medical journal that was talking about a possible cure in the next twenty years that had a similar idea.

The difference was that in the medical journal, they were saying that a method would be developed to make ALL the HSV virus hiding in the CNS come out and when all the virus was active, antiviral meds (acyclovir basically) could be taken and would be able to destroy the HSV completly. The reason why antivirals dont cure herpes now is because during an outbreak and shedding, only some of the virus becomes active while the rest lays dormant out of the reach of our immune sytems and antivirals so during the time when medication is being taken, only the virus that is active at that time can be destroyed. So basically for this possible cure that was discussed in the medical journal, people would have to suffer one MASSIVE outbreak but then they would be HSV free. The down side to this, according to the article was that an outbreak like that would cause some SERIOUS nerve damage throughout the body. So I guess the 20 year gap between now and our cure is them trying to figure out how to make this work without destroying our nerves in the process...

Anyways, this device sounds crazy, but so did resolve right? And I'm trying that.... Let me know what you guys think about it if you get a chance to look at the website. Okay, FOR REALZ THIS TIME...Lol; Goodnight :-)

One last thing for tonight...

I tried to go on Love's blog to see if she had posted anything new since last week and everytime I clicked on it this afternon, it says that I havent been invited to read it so I cant...That's strange to me!!! Why just today is her blog not viewable to the public? Not only that, but I was and still am according to my profile, a follower on her blog, but here it appears she has given me the boot :-( That makes me wonder now... When I get down, I like to read her past posts where she was feeling like me and then skip to the ones where she found out she was negative. THAT SUCKS!!! Could it be that she really was working for resolve and now there is someting on there she is trying to hide? I just thought that was wierd...hopefully it's just late night paranoia and resolve works fine and I will be HSV negative in september... I'm about to be stressed about that now...bleh!!!

Step 1; Day 38 PART 2

Bleh...I just finished taking my dose C for the evening. From what it looks like in the bottles, tomorrow should be my last day for A and B, but since I missed C that one night, I have a little more so that will probably carry over into saturday. I wonder if I can take it in the morning and get it over with or if I should wait and take it at night...hmmmmm I'll probably take i saturday morning just to be done with it.

Nothing new, my stomach is bubblin a little bit...eeeewwwww!!! I'm sleepy. I think I'ma call it a night. Have a good one :-)

Step1; Day 38

I'm still working on finishing the last of step 1, it looks like I only have another day or 2 left till the bottles are empty. I hope step2 isnt as nasty as step1, but from what Fearfully Hopeful has been posting, it looks like it may be even worse...lol!!! It's all good, I'm a big girl; I can handle it :).

My skin is clearing up a little, but I still have a huge pimple next to my piercing under my lip (ouch!!!) and that funky painful boil pimple behind my left ear...lol! Thats so wierd...I also have some new scars from the old pimples that have pretty much cleared. I recently accepted that no matter how good I was with using my Walmart brand "Proactiv", it's just not working while I'm on this detox. What has really helped my skin clear in the last few days is good old fashion rubbing alcohol...I know they say it's terrible to use on your face all the time but it's really helping dry the pimples up. I also decided to swich to just a regular face wash until the pimples slow down and that way I dont waste my money on the expensive stuff while it's uneffective.

Other than that, I'm feelin pretty good so far today. Since I only have a couple pimples at the moment, I feel like I'm all that and a bag of chips today...lol!!! I slept pretty good last night for the first time in about a week. Fearfully Hopeful has been very supportive of me while I've been down the last few days and that has really lifted my spirit...thanks girl :-)

I got big concert plans this weekend so that gives me an excuse to go shopping and pamper myself without feeling guilty about spending the extra money!!! Well I guess I better go face this Thursday...it's cold outside! I really hope it warms up...this Bay Area weather is a trip...hella hot one day and raining the next, go figure. Well hae a great day everyone!!! I wish you all the best :-)

Step 1; Day 37

I'm hella tired today!!! I only slept for like two hours last night and I am an hour and a half away from closing in on this 12hr work day...bleh!!! I didnt drink all my water yesterday either and I'm sorta behind on that today too; I need to get with it... Besides that, nothing new to report. I'm happy I'll be finished with step 1 in a couple days.

Well, I'm still working so I gotta keep it short and sweet, but I'll be back to post something more interesting, hopefully, tomorrow. Good evening all :-)

Step 1; Day 36

So today is supposed to be my last day on step 1, but I think since I missed a couple doses throughout the detox, I am going to finish out the bottles which looks to be about another two or three days. I just took B and I have to say I wont miss the taste of any of these doses at all!!! I'm excited to be almost done with step 1. I'm ready to move on... I wish we didnt have to wait to long to test, the suspense is killing me!!!

Nothing new today besides a few new PAINFUL pimples...I have a huge one on the back of my ear that hurts HELLA bad!!! I have given up on trying to pop them because they still stay and they still hurt.Whatever!!! I'm still sexy though...lol!!! I just throw on my bare minerals make up to help hide some of the redness and go out into the world and do my thang like everything is normal :-).... No new sores or anything to report. Just that every so often, I feel tingling down there that reminds me my HSV2 is still there and I do get some muscle soreness that is usually associated with the outbreaks.

I havent drank that much water today so I gotta start chuggin to make my 1/2 gallon before I go to bed. That's pretty much it for today. I only had 1 drink last night when I went out for a friends birthday instead of like three or four, so that's an improvement right? I dont think I'm gonna drink tonight but we shall see.

Step 1; Day 35

I'm feeling a little better today now that I found someone currently on resolve. I'm sad that "Fearfully Hopeful" is in a similar situation as me but it feels good to have the support of another who understands what you are going through. Hardly anyone close to me knows I am infected with HSV2 accept for a couple people, like my mom and BFF,so I am constantly feeling alone, ashamed, and depressed. Fearfully Hopeful also has a blog on here Resolve experience at "48daysandcounting.blogspot.com" if anyone else is interested in following her progress.

Not much is going with my body lately. I had my first and only outbreak while on resolve a few weeks ago. It was only 1 sore that I could see, but it was more painful than most outbreaks I've had before. I do have a butt-load of pimples though!!! No matter what I do, I cant get rid of them!!! And they arent normal pimples...thay're like mutant pimles!!! I have one huge one on my chin that had about five white-heads in just that one pimple, and when I tried to pop it, noting would really come out and it hella scabbed over. I've given up on thinking anything will help the acne. I guess I just gotta ride it out :-( It makes me feel really self conscious, but if I test negative in september, it will have all been worth it...scars and all!!!

Because I have been so down, I have been drinking quite frequently in the evenings to try and cope. Resolve says it wont effect my results but they told me that since it's a detox, I should drink in moderation. I'm a little nervous about that, but Fighter admitted to drinking while on her detox and from what she posted she is now negative for HSV2. Well tomorrow is supposed to be my final day of Step 1 before my day of rest and journey on to step 2. Have a great day everyone :-)