Waiting Period; Day 62

I'm sure everyone is aware of all the negativity going around regarding the positive results that are popping up around here. I was having second thoughts about continuing with the booster all day long. However, I exchanged a few emails with "Pants" and read "On and Up's" posts, and even though there is a huge chance they may turn out positive again like the others, I think I'm gonna continue the booster to the end and take the western blot in October sometime after my birthday. I'm highly doubting it will work, but I have been taking the booster for about a week, so another two weeks wont kill me. "Pants" said some really encouraging things to me so I'm gonna take his advice. Even if it doesnt work, I have already started so I'm gonna finish it and take things from there when it's over.

I will keep you all posted no matter what happens with me or anyone else

Waiting Period Day 60

Good morning :)

Not much to report but I just wanted to check in and let you all know I'm still here fighting the good fight!!! My outbreak is pretty much cleared up. I've had some pretty intense tingling in the last few days but I'm sure it's because of the OB. My face is still pimply too. I have a feeling the pimples are only gonna get worse because of the booster but this is what I signed up for so it is what it is.

I had dinner with my old mentor from high school (who is still to this day a great friend of mine) on Friday. She is one of the first people who knew I had H and she helped me get through the early stages of it. She hooked me up with another person she "mentors" in our area who is a little younger than me and has genital warts. Even though our viruses are different, it's nice to have someone close by you can meet up with and talk to for support. Dont get me wrong, I love having you all and I'm forever greatful to Resolve for that, weather it works or not, but it's nice to actually be face to face with a person who sees not just what you post, but what you look like and everything when you are sharing stuff about these kind of issues. We have been talking everyday and we have hung out twice since we were put in contact on Friday.

Optimistic: I just wanted to say thank you so much for being right by my side the last few days while I was in my down moments. Talking with you on the phone as much as we have been has really helped me raise my spirits up...so thanks again girl :) Hang in there, we will find something that makes things better for us!!!

Have a great hump day everyone :-)

Waiting Period; Day 58

Happy Monday everyone!!! Thanks to "Positive Thinker" and "Wkd" for your uplifting comments :) I informed Resolve about my OB and they told me to do the booster so I started friday but of course I've F'ed it up already...lol!!! I took both doses on friday and I took the first one on saturday morning, but I was out all day and ended up spending the night out and not getting home till yesterday evening. So basically, I missed my second dose on saturday and my first dose on sunday. I can make them up though. The bottle says take for 3 weeks and then Resolve said wait 6 weeks to test after I have completed the booster. So I know this changes my test date to sometime in late October. I havent calculated it out yet, but when I do, I'll post my first testable day.

I had a pretty good weekend OB and all. Got a lot of rest in, but that means I have to try and finish all my homework tonight for school tomorrow since I didnt even open a book this weekend :( Well, back to the craziness the weekdays bring me!!! I hope you all had a great weekend.

Waiting Period; Day 55

Happy Friday all!!! It's not so happy for me because I do have an outbreak. Clearing Symptom?...Maybe. There is also the chance that this just isnt gonna work. I'll email resolve and see if I should do the booster or if I should wait it out and test first before trying the booster. Surprisingly, Im not that devistated. I guess my mind set was in a good place, great if it works, not the end of the world if it doesnt. The only thing that bothers me is that I usually get them every 4 months or so at the most, but I just had one on step 1 maybe about 2 months ago so it's a little soon for me to be having one. Well, I'm not gonna read too much into it until I hear from Resolve. It should be gone in a day or two anyways. It's only one sore (i usually only have 1 or 2), and it doesnt feel good, but it's not too bad.

This dude on the hub mentioned something called "Monolaurin" (i think) that supposidly breaks down the lipids on the H virus cells making it so they cant replicate which means a lower viral load and less OB's. It's worth looking into..I may try it. I was texting with "Fearfully Hopeful" this morning and she is gonna do some research on it for us and get back to me. I dont really get that many OB's anyways but it would be nice to have them even less.

Waiting Period: Day Fifty Something (not quite sure!!!)

Good afternoon all!!! I gotta scurry off to school soon, but I just wanted to write something quickly because I probably wont be able to post again till next week.

As far as symptoms, my beautiful face is still covered with these awful pimples :-( I have had some major tingling the last couple days too...I'm kinda nervous that I may get an outbreak sometime soon. It has felt that way all day but every time I use the bathroom, I kinda feel around for any "sensitive to the touch" spots where I feel tingles at and I havent felt anything. Dont really know what to think about that... hopefully it's just more clearing. Call me crazy, but it almost seems like the more often I feel aroused, the more tingles I have, like the H is telling me to calm the F down...lol!!! It's kinda funny if you think about it, but it's sad too. Dont worry, I'm not getting aroused because I'm doing anything sexual...I've just been around someone I've been lusting for for months a lot lately and I'm only humman :( Ws that TMI? Oh well...all this thinking about H and lack of sexual activity is really getting to me lately. Poor me...lmao.

Well I'm gonna stoip whining about being horny and get myself together for class. Sorry if this post was too "X-Rated" for yall...lol!!! I'm just being honest here :) Take it easy guys...have a great evening and if I dont post before monday, have a great weekend!!!

Waiting Period; Day 52

Wow!!! 'm sure you have all seen the great news!!! "Onwards and Upwards" and the "Pants and leg something or other dude" are both HSV NEGATIVE!!!! Well, onwards and Upwards said something about having typoe 1 detected, but her type 2 is gone!!! This is great news :-) Hopefully they will both retest in a few months just to be sure they dont have the same outcome as Love but this does make me a bit more hopeful!!!

As far as symptoms, I am still having the pimples on my face and some tingling in my vaginal area, but no outbreaks or anything like that. I'm soooooo excited about the news I feel like anything I was stressed about today has been forgotten!!! Hopefully it will work this way for the rest of us :-0

I'LL HOLLA :-)

Waiting Period; Day 51

Hello All!!! Sorry I havent posted in almost a week...I promise I will not stop doing this blog, atleast until this process is over (if ever)!!! I have just been super busy and I havent been home long enough to blog (or do anything else useful for that matter) in about a week!!! It is nice to get away from it sometimes and feel like I'm normal for a few days but I have to keep it real with myself and remind myself that no matter how much I pretend it doesnt exist for a few days, I still have H as of now. I'm still here though...alive and kickin...I still have pimples and I am experiencing some tingling here and there.

I'm looking forward to the people's results who have them coming up...I hope it's good news :-)

Waiting Period; Day 45

Good evening everyone!!! Symptoms are pretty much the same...pimples still, but I dont recall tingling today.

As tired as I was last night, I laid in bed for hours without falling asleep so I was still tired today, but my mood was much better. Tomorrow is hump day which means we are almost there!!! I am really looking forward to this weekend...I'm gonna be as lazy as possible so I can be rested for school to start next week. I'm excited about school :-) I'm really looking forward to the classes I'll be taking.

"Wkd" and "Optomistic"...thank you both so so much for your kind words and support. I dont know what I'd do without you guys. Also, thanks to "Hopeful"...you are a true friend!!! The three of you have been the best thing that has happened to me since all this Resolve mess and weather it works or not, I'm glad it brought me to you all :-) "Fearfully Hopeful" and "Seatortoga", I'm forever greatful to your support and posts as well. You all keep me sane through this.

I'm really looking forward to seeing "Onwards and U[wards" results on the blogs and "Daisy's" results from the hub. Stay optomistic everyone!!!

Waiting Period; Day 44

Good evening everyone!!! Today was an awful day for me :-( It was a super long work day and I' soooooo exhausted physically and mentally, I can hardly function. I hate starting my weeks out this way!!!

Anyways, enough of me wallowing in my self pity...as far as symptoms, my face is still broke out and I experienced some minor tingling today. I'm having my doubts about this working, which is kinda depressing, but not the end of the world. I'm trying not to let myself fall into negative thinking about this, but this waiting to test, and reading what some people post in the hub make it difficult. Also, my "common sense" is telling me, if this really worked, than why is no one cured? I hope my test date in september will be what I want but I cant help but wonder...Sorry if this post is depressing or discouraging to any of you, but I promised to be honest here, good or bad and this is how I'm feeling about it today. Hopefully I'll be back to my upbeat self soon...It's just been a really long day and this whole detox has been a really long process.

Anyways, I'm tired and about to go to bed, but I hope everyone is doing well. Stay as optomistic as possible!!!

Waiting Period; Day 43

Nothing major going on...just waiting out the rest of my time before I test. I dont recall much tingling in the last few days. The pimples I had when I last posted are clearing, but I'm getting new ones...this sucks!!! There's not a lot of them, but they are big and noticable :(

I feel like this weekend went by way to fast!!! It's already Sunday and I feel like there is still so much I need to do before I start the week off.

Waiting Period; Day 40

I had some pretty severe tingling for a few minutes this morning...It actually bothered me to the point where it started to really distract me from what I was doing. But then it went away and I havent felt any since...go figure!!!

Other than that, nothing major. I ate HELLA good last night...lol!!!...And then hated myself in the morning :-( It's all good though, I know I'm allowed to stray from my "healthy diet and exercise routine" on occasion.

Well, that's all for now. I hope everyone is well. Have a great night :-)

Waiting Period; Day 39

Hi everyone!!!

Nothing new here- My face still looks like pizza and I had some minor tingling today but not much else going on here.

I decided to take today off the gym...My legs are pretty sore from introducing some new toning exercises, and plus, I made good on my word and decided to come home with some of my favorite all American junk food and pig out in front of the t.v. until I decide it's time for bed :-) I am passing on the alcohol consumption though...I think I'll wait till a party I'm attending on Saturday for that. I dont wanna go overboard with the calories between comfort food and liquor!!! I'm think I'm gonna go to bed early tonight and get up before work in the morning to work out.

Wkd: I'm glad you're enjoying your time off...I wish I was there with you!!! Chicken and drinks sounds great right about now, only I dont too much care for KFC...I like Popeye's better. Do they have Popeye's down under? Lol...you always give me a good laugh when you mention "crazy girl"...lmao :-) A nice lady I chat with on the hub gave me a good laugh this evening as well. I dont know if you guys do this in Australia, but in the US, we call Wednesday "Hump Day" because it's the "hump" in the middle of the week that leads us closer to the weekend when it's over (I hope I explained that right). Anyways, she ended her post by saying "Happy hump day even though none of us are humping :-(" (or something to that effect). That made me laugh too!!! Thanks again for your support and kind words buddy. Dont forget to send me those pics you mentioned when you get some free time. Have a beer for me :-)

Waiting Period; Day 38

I believe this is my 38th waiting day before testing...lol!!! I wasnt sure if I was accurate with the title of my last posting and I'm too tire to calculate it out now, but what I DO know is that my first testable day is 9-25-2009, and believe it or not, it's coming quicker than I expected!!!

I apologize for having these "couple day gaps" between posts but things have been HELLA crazy for me last week and this week and it's been hard for me to get a moment to myself to do this. To be honest, it;s been nice to not have Resolve and herpes on my mind as much. As theraputic as blogging is and as many supportive friends I've made on here, it's nice to feel like a "regular" disease free person...even if it is only for a few days until reality sets back in :-(

Not really any new symptoms...my face is pretty broke out at the moment and I had some stronger tingling than normal yesterday and this morning. I think I have decided to wait out my ninety days and test before taking my booster. I dont really feel like going anothwer round unless I absolutely have too...

My work out routine sorta died over the weekend, but I started this week out strong so wish me luck on keepin it going all week long...lol!!! I've been in one of those moods lately where all I wanna do is call in sick and pig out and drink with friends. Even though they dont know about this, it feels nice to live like a regular 23 year old every once in a while.

I hope everyone is well...until next time :-)

Waiting Period; Day 36 (I think...)

Hello everyone!!! Sorry it has been a couple days since my last post. I've been with family and away from my home and laptop for a few days.

My face is breaking out again!!! Also, I have a painful pimple on my scalp at the top of my head. Tingling has been minimal but I still have been feeling it here and there.

Not much else going on here. I hope everyone had a great weekend. Until next time :-)